This is a strange letter because you obviously care about her and yet you are expressing your distress at ther revelation in terms of cheating on her and being self destructive by drinking..
Of course I can't know enough to give an exact directive to you- but here are the elements of this situation that you need to think about:
First of all, if you can't give her the commitment she needs at least offer a firm
friendship. Then you dont have to feel so guilty and you wont need to punish her or
yourself with self destructive behavior.
Second, get her to a good rape crisis center where they have great counseling and support services. They will get her to the right person to deal with incest and they will help her figure out what to do.
Third, be a little patient with her as a person. She has carried this burden for so many years- don't punish her with total withdrawal. If you don't love her, or dont want to marry her , now or eventually- that is your decision to make and so be it. But be there for her to have a shoulder to cry on. She might try and drive you away with big demands and scenes- but if you want to be a great guy- don't let her push you away because you wont be her partner- try and be convincing that you care about her and want to support her as she works through this. If she does not want that and really won't have it, ok, you can leave with a good conscience- you tried. But really try.
It is very hard to be with someone going through this kind of trauma. You either have the heart for it or not... but its hard --and the truth is some women never get over the effects of the experience--others will, but there is no guarantee about when.
She will eventually, one hopes confront the situation head on and make her father answer to his crime with her. But she has to make that decision. I don't blame you for not wanting to go over to her house- she will understand that eventually- but in the meantime make sure she understands you are not trying to punish her- you are merely unable to be in the presence of someone who has hurt someone you care about so hideously or be in a family that supports non intervention of this assaultive and perverse relationship.
Of course your girlfriend is insecure. Look what she's been through. Maybe you can't or don't want to deal with it- these emotions are too complex to try and analyze completely- but it would be upsetting to almost anyone. Just keep encouraging her to get help and be her friend. ULtimately , she will have to want to heal and get help to do just that. Part of that healing is likely to be bringing the authorities in. It will be painful all the way around but remember to respect the courage it took to tell you and don't judge her for how long it takes her to deal with her father now. None of us know how we would act if someone had taken away our security and innocense in this terrible way.
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I'm dating a woman that was molested by her father as a child. I'm not sure how young she was but I know she had to be very young. She can not have kids because of internal damage as a result. As far as the sex goes, there are no problems. Your problem with your sexual experince has more to do with you than her. I do not understand why you would think you are hurting her by having sex. You are really hurting her by cheating. From my experience, my woman just needs me to be there when she is having issues dealing with her past, and this is important, she tells me the she does not want me there. You need to reassure her that the man in her life actually does love her, because the man who should of loved her unconditionally(father) failed.
i have to agree with rock.. i have a lot of experience with lieing about these sorts of things although i mainly did it to myself and my therapists i never really brought people into it. I have been sexually abused and assaulted but only one of each. I understand the strain it can cause on a relationship because my boyfriend and i have problems getting past alot of my issues. I get nightmares whenever something reminds me of my past. I lied to my therapist for years telling her i was molested on many occasions by the same family member when in reality I was never harmed by a family member. I think it was my way of avoiding the real issue but i don't really know i still have to stop myself sometimes from thinking about it because i thought it for so long part of me really does believe it. I think the two of you need to sit down and have a true heart to heart. Tell her how you feel and how it is affecting you, and stop cheating and get help for your problems that will help her to know you really do care and want to help her and your self!! Well good luck to you. This is a really hard thing to work through my boyfriend and i are going on four years and i just recently opened up to him ( a week ago). It opened his eyes to a lot of our problems and helped us grow closer. But we have much different circumstances. I hope you all the best whether it be together or apart.
Well I'm going to take a little different tack than the others.
I don't think it's your duty to remain with a woman who is not well, and isn't trying to get well. You were at the point of breaking up with her before you knew, because she wasn't a "match" for you.
You aren't under any obligation in life to marry a woman because you pity her.
She needs to get well, and figure this whole thing out and TURN HER FATHER IN so that he isn't having sex with someone else and damaging them.
BTW - this is a tiny point, but your math is all wrong - I have a small hinky feeling maybe this isn't as she is saying it.
She needs to resume therapy ASAP. Once she gets that ball rolling, you should consider attending a few session with her.
Oh, and if she finds out you're cheating on her, she will feel re-victimized all over again. Using "this incident" as a reason to get drunk and run around is BS.
It sounds as this is too much for you to handle emotionally. Even if she wasn't molested, I would suggest ending this relationship. It sounds like you to mature a little bit before settling down. Sew your wild oats and experience life a little bit more before carrying around someone else's baggage. Believe me, it's the best thing you can do for her in the long run. She deserves to be with someone that can love and accept her for who she is now or she needs to be alone. She deserves to be cherished just as anyone else does, not belittled as you are doing to her. Your just not the right guy for her,not right now anyway. It's not your fault, it's life.
Stop Cheating on her! That's a good start there. Do you love her? If so, then you need to be there for her.
I for one know its VERY HARD to open up and talk to someone about being abused. She must trust you a lot to share those painful memories with you. You should feel honored that she chose you to talk too.
Yes it can put a strain on a relationship but ONLY if you keep letting it.
Bottom Line... If you love her then be there 100% of her. Stop cheating on her. Don't use her abuse as a reason to cheat.
I am sorry to come off so harsh.
i was going to say what a good guy you are for wanting to help her. but then i read that line. what are you doing? if this relationship isnt what you want, and its too much to deal with then leave!! what she has and continues to endure with the past history is something that will take much time and therapy to see her through. im guessing because of her fathers choice she does feel the need to be assured she is loved and respected. do her a favor and either get your act together or set her free.
If the two of you are not doing well, it is probably best to break it off (nicely) with her rather than continue on and possibly make her insecurities and anxieties worse. You are doing more damage staying with her if you dont feel you can handle the situation overall.
Sorry, my math was wrong in the initial post. I meant to say 9 years from the age of 5 to 14 years old.
It did cross my mind maybe she was telling lie from preventing me to flee. That has past. She told two close friends of hers that I have had conversations with and her therapist (who she seen for a very short time) which I attended a couple of sessions.
I wish you the best. I think the fact that she's telling a therapist, and her friends, and you, but hasn't peeped a word to any of her family and she's still going to visit her family - she's miles and miles and miles from any kind of recovery.
The cheating I know is wrong. I think I was at the point to end the relationship right before she told me. Now, I don't have the heart to leave her in the dust.
I am wrong for cheating and I am a coward but its not easy being with someone so emotionally fragile.
"My drinking and cheating has increased since this incident."
Poor, poor girl. She should be the one running. No wonder she constantly questions your love for her.
Just for the record I had a problem with alcohol before I met her. The cheating is a result of the alcohol but I am not making any excuses, I know its a choice that I make. After she told me, making love to her was difficult. I felt either I was hurting her or she enjoys it for the wrong reasons. I have been to therapy with her but it always turns to the problem that "I cause",a according to her, in the relationship.
I am trying to make the point I am not perfect and I do need to work on myself. She needs to work on herself as well. I care for her and love her but this incident puts a strain on it.
I am asking has anyone been through a relationship where the two have their own problems to solve and been through it? Has anyone dealt with a person who has been sexually abused as a child from their dad or close familty member for 9 years?
I am not asking to deal with my cheating issues. That is something I know is wrong and I am working on it. I need some advice about being with someone who has been sexually abused.
Thanks everyone,
Lost but looking to find.