For about a year i have experienced these weird feelings. Usually just when i sleep but sometimes i think about it in the day. Its almost like numbers but not exactly, it is too hard to explain but i will try my hardest I just want to know what is going on with me!
I would be dreaming, everything would be fine then i would feel like i got hurt, and it would hurt more than i can handle and then i would think about numbers, last night it was like a million and i was trying to get it to lower but it couldn't, i woke right up and i freak out like i start pacing around the room and when it starts to calm down i feel like throwing up and i get hot flashes and i just want to scream. the first time it happened was last year around thanksgiving i thought it was only because i wasn't getting enough sleep. it has happened 3 or 4 times since then and a few times a month i get a weird feeling in my head and i start thinking about it. it usually almost always has something to do with numbers, or having too much of something than i need. sometimes its like i dream about buying something and i don't have enough money for it and it makes me just freak out. nothing like this has ever happened to me before. i was wondering maybe its because i worry about money a lot. i'm not sure. most people if they start thinking about something it just goes away but when this happens to me i cant its like its stuck it wont go away and i keep thinking about it over and over again.
but the way i feel when i wake up it scares me so bad, like i cant handle the feeling anymore. im having a hard time explaining how it is because its very difficult to explain i dont know how to. it is so hard to explain. whenever it happened i try to explain to my boyfriend then i think about what i am saying and it is so hard for me it makes me sound stupid. i cant find anything online relating to what is going on with me.
i tried my hardest to explain, i'm not sure if this would make any sense to anybody. any help please?