Well as you may know I have severe anxiety and I'm bipolar. I've been having a very hard time since April, I was doing wonderful up until last wednesday. I've been waking up so sad and angry, I have no motivation whatsoever. Lately I've been in physical pain for no apparent reason. I feel like nothing. I feel like a huge walking bruise.
Well today I forced myself to get ready and get in the car and I got to school around 2 like I'm supposed to. I didn't go in though, I waited outside in the car with my grandma. About 20 minutes later my ex walks out and looks right at me and we were both looking at each other and I just fell apart. I just crumbled to pieces and started crying and screaming. I have no clue why, I absolutely hate him. I don't even remember what i was thinking after I saw him. I don't remember anything until I went upstairs and grabbed my secret pack of cigarettes and started smoking. I hadn't opened it until today but still, I shouldn't have had it in my room. I shouldn't have given myself the opportunity to smoke.
How can I get over all of this? Why am i falling backwards? Someone please help.
Since you suffer from anxiety and probably some depression, counseling will help you get back on the road of quitting smoking. Please consult a psychiatrist or a family doctor and get a complete evaluation. Thereafter once your anxiety is under control you can follow the following steps:
• The first step is to decide and stick to your decision.
• Set and date and throw away all cigarettes.
• Inform your physician about your decision and seek help in terms of medications, alternatives to smoking etc.
• Join a group to stay motivated.
• Consult a therapist as counseling will help divert your attention from cravings and withdrawal symptoms.
• Ask your doctor/therapist regarding 24 X 7 telephone support services that help keep you motivated in the effort. Enroll in this service.
• At all stages when you have cravings and withdrawal symptoms, remember they are temporary and will pass away even if you do not smoke.
• Tell your friends about your decision and seek their help and support.
• Take up exercise: walking, jogging, swimming etc to keep fit.
• Eat healthy.
• Be strong.
Hope these steps help you quit smoking once for all! Take care!
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