Faith

59 yr old femae.  I had an endarterectomy 6 months ago (cleaning out a carotid artery).  Even though this artery was screwed up the other was ok...minimal narrowing.  All of my preop testing turned out well.  Chest x-ray showed normal heart size and lungs were ok.  They said my blood work was good ... glucose normal, lipids ok and crp protein normal.  EKG was said to "look great".   The operation went fine and I was back to work in 2 weeks. My doctor says since there are no symptoms there is no need to see a cardiololgist now.  I just keep picturing my coronary arteries full of plaque. I exercise by walking every day and watch my diet closely.  I am on a statin and a beta blocker for high blood pressure which is under control.  I get so scared in the night.  I just want to find peace with (and in) my life...no matter what happens.  I pray so hard for peace and acceptance of what ever may happen.  I am so tired of worrying about it. I feel like my faith is lacking.  I love the Lord and am a firm believer...why can't I let this go?  I want to enjoy my life again.

[Punkinhead75]

Glad to hear things went well and that you are in good shape.  Is there something that you are afraid of?  That is usually where I start looking when I can't let go.  I deal with some physical issues too.  I do what I can on a daily basis and then turn it over.  I had to stop worrying about what I can or can't do and just do the best I can.  If I am unable to see what is causing my worry  I will ask to be shown.  From there I can work on acceptance.  God Bless!!!

[lucy0206]

I guess it is partly my fear of being alone.  I have had anxiety issues for years.  I  know you are right....it happened and  I need to accept it and move on.  I can't change what has happened but  I need to trust God for the future.  I need to memorize the serenity prayer and hold t dear to my heart right now.  Not my will but His be done.  Thanks for responding.

[Punkinhead75]

Trust God today and the future will take care of itself.

[nlk259949]

Love God with all of your heart, and love people with all of your heart. Do these things and the Lord will always be with you, through life and death. Also, just remember, in death we are just shedding this physical body, and beginning our spirit life! =) Everything will be alright =) This website might help you--look around and read different things that interest you, it has changed my life =). http://near-death.com/

[Nikodicreta]

Prayer is talking to God. You need not try hard. Just do it from your heart, not your head.
Meditation is God talking to you. If unable to meditate, just do deep conscious breathing
like Pranayama Breathing and totally concentrate doing only that.
Pay attention to all the healing energy entering your entire body  when inhaling and all the unwanted energy exiting your body when exhaling and nothing else.
Do this breathing for 5 minutes to start and work up to 10 minutes each time and multiple times daily.
In between these breathing sessions, consciously and intentionally, practice looking at the bright side of anything you come across in your life, including obstacles and anything that you viewed as negative in the past.
You will be able soon to understand that there's no such thing as bad, fear, illness, or negative in our lives. These are just concepts that we have created in our minds collectively
or individually to justify or explain  our shift away from the truth.
And the truth has to do with one thing only and that is love, just as  nlk259949 put it so well in the previous post. ( Thank you for this contribution nlk259949 !  and Puninhead75 as well ! )
So at the end, all we need is Love!
Blessings to All.
Nikodicreta
P.S. Look up Miguel Ruiz and the 4 Agreements.
We are both NDEers this may relate to the previous posting (I haven't looked at the
website yet)