Fear of loved ones dying

[Lily21]

Hi all,
I'm new here but i thought id give this a try and see if anyone has any suggestions. I am 26 years old and as long as i can remember i have always STRESSED out about my familys well being. I know i can't control what happens but i see that now as i am getting older i stress about my family and loved ones dying on a daily basis. I know it might sound weird but you have no idea how bad this can get unless you go through what i go through everyday. It's getting to a point that i have panic attacks here n there. I am extremely close to my mother, father and sister and just the thought of them not being here scares me. I know this is a serious problem becuase i can't let go of it and i have tried over the years but the thought runs through my mind constantly. I was on anti depressants for a few months a couple years ago but decided to stop taking them. Does anyone have any suggestions? I want to enjoy the days i have with them right now and i dont want to waste time thinking of things that may or may not happen soon but i just can't stop on my own.

[ingals]

Hi, I read all the messages while sobbing in my room at night and even though it's good to know I'm not alone feeling like this, I can't say that I've found a way out of it. This is such a different fear compared to anything else, because there is no escape from it. The thing we fear will happen. It's just a question of when.

I don't even know what I fear the most anymore, my own death or the death of my family. I really love them all so so much and I saw that many of the comments before mine said they were afraid of an accident or something of the sort happening. My biggest problem is that I don't stress about an accident but just when the day comes that they are old and die. I'm not religious but I'd want to be, because then I'd have faith that I would see them again, but now I just feel like it will be the end of us as a family and I will never hear them laugh or get to tell them anything ever again. I don't think I will survive that.

Even the thought of leaving my little sisters behind terrifies me to a point where I can't function properly. I have never in my life felt such emotional pain that it actually hurts so much that I have cried my eyes out every day for over a week now. I fear the time of the day that I'm supposed to go to sleep because that's when it's the worst and I just feel like going to sleep next to my parents but I don't dare because even at daytime I feel like bursting to tears when I look at them.

I feel like I am wasting my time and all this thinking is pointless, and even though I would give anything to be with them forever, that's not going to happen. The fear has crippled me and I don't know what to do. All this started so suddenly and I'm starting to panic that I will be like this for the rest of my life.

[lebon44]

Hi ,that's has to be the worst feeling ..I know myself whst this feels like ,the anxiety it causes ..I found reading the bible comforting ,or focusing on something positive and not dwell on it one moment at a time while the episode lasts ,Its been a while since you posted this. ..hope you are are less anxious !

Natascha

[Riley_Purcell]

I am 14 and have the same problem. I am always stressed that some or all of my family will die. I forced my parents to install many more smoke alarms because I thought that they would all burn to death. Also I am scared that if I ring or text my mum or dad while they're out they'll will crash their car and die. This is the worst one, my mum has been depressed for a year now and every time my parents argue my mum will sometimes go out to have some alone time. Every time I am scared she will commit suicide.

[chadclean]

how are your worries since this last post you made?  I go through the same.

[rachitPRADHAN]

Same here friends. I have been developing this thought for a while and with each day passing, the fear grows more intense and now i have been caught in a pool of depression. Even i cant study properly. I am not living my present life and would always dream of the years in my teens which i spend with them. I am 22 now and it look like  the last breath i breath was at the age of 18. Plz help me guys.

[Sunaj_00]

I cried all day reading these comments. I often feel i'm the byproduct of a failed experiment, much like everyone else. I envy those with faith because some of you guys have found peace with the concept of death, reassured there's an afterlife. I wish I could share the same thoughts as you guys, as an atheist.  Recently I've been losing consciousness in and out, no idea why, could be anything.   I used to think I was impervious to sickness and disease due to my healthy lifestyle, but it was just a big headed phase. The feeling of losing consciousness and almost blacking out is a kin to having a near death experience, I wonder. my loss of consciousness is a kin to extreme  light headed ness, to the point it forces me to sit down and recollect my self. If thats what I near death experience sort of feels like, I do not like it at all and am not prepared for the ultimate ride.  Whats really ****** up is that death is an immutable constant in everyone lives, and theres absolutely nothing that we can do to change this