new found strength

After having surgery, again, a few months ago, I was left feeling more "deformed" than I had ever been before. Normally this would not have bothered me all that much, but quite a few of my "friends" left me during the time of my surgery and I only had a couple reliable friends left. Though I must say that the friends who did stick around are just amazing and that I love them to death, but anyways, back to what I was getting at. The comments, questions, and stares from people made me insecure and I would tend to wear baggy clothing trying to hide this and not let anyone see. Though after a while I started to no longer care. It wasn't like this "deformity" was just going to go away. I had been offered the option of another surgery to "fix the problem", but I ended up turning it down. I have never been one for cosmetic surgery and still don't really like it. My only thing is that I wish people would not be so rude and make ignorant comments about the way I look. My leg/hip looks the way it does because of the skin flap and the malformation that I have had since birth. It's not going to look much better than it does now and I am fine with that. I am still beautiful. Beauty is not just one look, it is more than the outer appearance, it is not defined by one standard. It has taken me some time to finally be comfortable with the way that I look, but I am so happy that I am there right now.

[margypops]

You are so right beauty is not just one look , I think it is wonderful that you feel this way and it will help others when they read it to feel the same about them selves, I can tell you have a caring attitude , I cannot understand any one making a negative comment about you, they are not worthy of a seconds thought. I hope you continue to feel good I am sure you will with this positive attitude