Afraid to test

[mich2730]

Hi, Ladies! Haven't been on this site for ages. I guess it's really getting difficult now to keep being positive. Every month I come here and read everybody's posts...you know, looking for something to make me hope.

Anyways, my 2WW "ended" yesterday. No, I haven't tested. You see, the last 2 weeks have been quite strange. First of, I had brown spotting when it was just 5dpo which lasted for 4 days. Not much, just when I wiped and maybe a little bit on the pantiliner (sorry if TMI). I was feeling really tired with really bad headaches when I woke up in the morning and just feeling out of it since the spotting started. I was also having this terrible sore throat and coughing especially at night. Then I started having some nasal congestion at around 9dpo which lasted for 3 days. Overall, this 2WW has just been difficult. Had dull cramps on and off. BUT... the strangest thing is that my BB's are not sore and just slightly bigger. They've been more full on other months that I had AF. Now, nothing. I would have been more hopeful that I might be getting a BFP this time if not for the missing BB symptoms.

I suppose I should test today, since technically, I should have had AF yesterday. But I'm just really afraid to see the BFN. Don't know...maybe I'll go later and buy some testing kits.

Thanks a lot for indulging me. SSBD to all....

[mich2730]

Hi there! I am not taking anything right now. But I now recall the this has happened once, about 3 years ago. But I was not ttc then so I know that I waSn't pregnant. I soon found out that I had endometriotic cysts and were removed surgically. I'm afraid they're back! Ugh! I hate that! I'll need to have injectable treatments again and may be 3 more months before I can ttc :( I suppose I just have to go and see my OB/Gyn about this just to get it over and done with. Sigh.... Anyways, thanks a lot for your response. Good luck to you too! :)

[FearsomeKitty]

I think it's possible that you're pregnant and just didn't get a positive HPT...? Was this a natural cycle? are you taking any progesterone or anything? Progesterone I think can delay your period... if you're not taking anything, I'd test again when you get your nerve back up. :)

good luck!

[mich2730]

Thanks a lot for your vote of confidence. I tested yesterday-- FMU, but it was a BFN. This is my 3rd day past when I should be getting my AF. This never happened to me before and I don't know what to think. My periods are regular, sometimes a day or two early, and sometimes a day late, but never 3 days late. Has this happened to anyone before? I just really want my AF to come already so I can start over :((

[Hopefulcb]

Test test test!! Maybe you'll get a surprise!! You never know!!!