Constant "BUTTERFLY" Pain in stomach.. thoughts.. Anxiety? PLEASE HELP!!!

I am having these pains, you know the "butterflies in your stomach feeling" But its all the time, and at times I feel so bad. It does get aggrevated by some thoughts, I'm taking a break from school and seeing Psychologist and getting treatment, so please don't answer with "Go see professional help"
I'm posting this to see if anyone can POSSIBLY Relate.

I had a moment in my life where it led to me to the dumps, Mentally. I am depressed, I have Anxious characteristics..
Whats wrong with me? I keep thinking soo much and it's just mentally exhausting,
Psychologists think I can relate to PTSD.. Post Traumatic Stress disorder..
I don't Enjoy music anymore, it makes me uncomfortable and my thoughts are so stupid, It's like thinking that i'm a dirty ********* or, or when I look at commercials with kids I feel worse and have that thought Again, Like it's just STUPIDDDD Thoughts, Pedophiles are monsters They should all go to prison and DIE, It's also like me being afraid of Homosexuality, but in reality, In your mind YOURE EITHER GAY OR YOURE NOT, But it's just weird cause I love girls, or If I ever went to the Army I would shoot someone on my team.. Like that, You know as I type this, I recall no Positive thoughts in my present life. They're all negative thoughts that don't relate to MY Teen life.
This pain is like someone is punching you in your bruised arm, again and again and again... It feels like I'm full of food, or a balloon is there, Someone told me they feel this when they're full of stress dealing with Relationships and jobs.

I feel this all the time and I'm only 16... Like the moment I wake up, to the moment I sleep.
I can't function as a person, I have weird thoughts all the time, they're so difficult to withstand. I'm talking to a cool person that I just met and I think the worst like, me punching her and feel my body just freezing up and in my head i'm thinking like Omg, Where did this come from, I can't imagine my self doing that, or when Im sitting beside a female clerk trying to help me, I'm just like Imaging at the moment as I speak that I would grab her breast, that's one example, I've never acted upon this and NEVER would. but I've never thought like this And when I'm at school I try to be populare and I've set myself for failure to get physically fit and it's just so ******* Hard to live now. It's like when I ask people "Do you have this Abdominal pain, Like the butterflies but they dont go away" They're like Nah I don't I feel nothing there, I could probably feel my food If I jumped up or something, And I'm just like Ahh there's some hope... And Like when I breath DEEEPLY It's not there until I exhale.



Can someone shed some light on this, Any? (Please If you intend to answer "Go get some treatment", Then Don't Answer this question. I am getting all the possible help out there that's available.

PLEASE Help,

[PetarGrifun]

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE ANSWER THIS....

[Kaaaa]

Hey I get the butterflies too it used to only be when I was thinking about things that could ended up bad or make me hurt in someway. But now I have it all the time I get it to the point where I can't eat because it makes me sick. I try taking deep breaths to get my mind off things. As for violent thoughts I get those too and I have to hol myself back to not follow through with them. I am really sorry that I can't help you I can only relate. - K

[HyHy]

Try to make yourself busy such as join any volunteer community work at Church or temple where there are lot of people and they are very forgiving.

The key is not to think about it. ignor it as much as possible. Pretent it is not there. (or too busy to think about it)

You may also have high level of acid in your tummy.  Try to avoid citrix and yogurt.

I hope this help.

[will42]

hi if your still getting this can u tell me how u got rid of it i am the exact same as what you have described its terrible i dont wish kt upon my worst enemy

[mishymoshymarcy]

From experience and from what you are describing it sounds like anxiety to me. I get the exact same thing, but now it is beginning to result in anger. But yes, it will not go away till i get to sleep. I am always conscious, and have very innapropriate thoughts which i, like you will never act on, but they are there. And i am wondering the same thing. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I know it's unusual, but I try to avoid thinking that. It passes through my mind like a breeze, adn once i start i cannot stop. I wish i could help you, but to be completely honest i am younger than you by a few years, but have experienced this ALOT. It's painful, i know. But what my counsellor has told me was to do some relaxation hynosis's or relaxation things. As someone has said, try to keep your mind away from these things, and keep yourself busy. I can't say anymore seeing i am still working on these things, and have found that pinch of happiness in my life, but it is still very hard. I wish you well.