Hurt

[new_lupe]

When I was younger my dad used to hit me all the time and I couldnt fight back, Well in a few weeks from now I am going to be 18 and i am going to tell him what i have always wanted to tell him, I HATE YOU... never in my life did i think that i would hate my own father but i do, i dont like the way he treats me my sister or my mom. I have had enough and no more i am done. Does anyone know how I feel?

[Haddock_Entrap_Propulasion]

I know exactly how you feel.  It's disorienting, realizing that you don't actually love one of your parents, the way that everyone says you're supposed to.  Most people won't even believe that that's how you really feel.  

[sleep96]

ik how u feel except its my mom not my dad(they are divorced).i live with my mom and she and my brothers hit me dont feed me nothing.so right now me and my dad r trying to live with eachother again even if it means going to a judge and showing my bruises and all! and im a boy and 13 just to tell ya im the yougest in my family and im the slave of the house.i clean forced to clean im barely aloud to go to my dads im everyones punching bag when they get mad and im the only one in this whole house that doesnt have a tv or a computer in my room all i got is my radio!

[Judy246]

Also, Lupe, my father once slammed me against a wall, tried to throw me out a window under blinding anger. As a child I was not good at math, so he thought by hitting me on my head with his knuckles, I would be forced to learn....I didn't.  I use to hide when he came from work. He was mean, unforgiving and just plain old "nasty".

You should see him now.....I Forgive him, because he is my dad, he's old, alone, sad and regrets everything he has done....I forgive him. Judy

[Judy246]

Hi Lupe,

I'm so sorry that you are being treated less than what you deserve and yes, I was once mistreated by my dad and when I became of age I did tell him  "I HATE YOU" and he said  "I hate you back"....that was when he was an alcoholic and had so many problems and raising a large family on one salary.  My dad is 83 yrs. old. My mom died in my arms July 18th and words can't describe the pain and grief that the entire family is going through. My dad said "I'm destroyed"....I look back at the pain he caused, but God's "Commandment" is "Honor Thy Mother and Thy Father". I have forgiven him.  I don't want him to die with the concious that he abused me....I forgive him and I'm a better person for it.   One day your dad will look back and regret it and maybe, just maybe, one day you will forgive him. It's easier said than done, but don't do anything you will regret in the future.  There is nothing like looking down at a parent in a casket...Take care, best wishes and God bless...Judy