I can't control my emotions

[SnappingPoint]

I'm 15 and I'm bad off, I think I need to be heavily sedated just to cope.     The thing is, I can't get happy anymore.  I don't feel sad like I should.  I feel emotionless, I have no feeling on my own.  I just occasionally get strange surges of energy and start lashing out on people or I start screaming with intense rage and can't control myself.  I can't take this, I just want to be normal, I don't want to be special. Whats wrong with me???

[rebels400]

Me too... I need help too...

[SnappingPoint]

you got me head on

[slow_healer]

It sounds like you're feeling pretty disconnected from what you're actually doing. Did something happen to shut you down? Either way, you're on the right track by recognizing there's a problem with how you feel and how you act. I recommend taking that a step further. When you can feel that surge of energy coming, think one step ahead about what you can do with it. If you're lashing out, would going into your bedroom and throwing on a CD help (rather than screaming with intense rage)? It sort of sounds like you don't feel like you're heard by those around you.

If there is something holding you down or that happened in the past, think about talking to a counsellor. Your family and friends can only help or listen to you so much. That's not to say they don't want to help, but sometimes they're just too involved to really see or hear you clearly. Think about it.