I need some help?

[Waitin4theEnd]

Im 13 years old. I dont really have depression, well I dont know if I do. I've been to a consuelor before, because my parents found out I cut/: That was pretty much the worst day of my life. They dont know I still do it..I dont know why I do it..I guess it kinda makes me happy, and lets out the pain. But Idk? I DONTT see my consuelor anymore, because I hated going. I had nothing to talk about..i've wanted to comitt suicide before, well like I thought about it, but never really tried it. I just really want to stop cutting, cuz i dont want them to find out again D;
Any advice?

[integrityblue]

but you are talking to someone here and we are all listening! Keep talking to us. Do you have any hobbies?

[Waitin4theEnd]

Thanks for thee advice guys(: but telling my parent is NOT an option. And no im not going to talk anyonee! Im pretty much fine..I just hate talking about it. So there for I wont.

[dadisconcerned]

I understand your feelings.They are real to you. I responded to your question not wanting to tell you what to do but to just offer adivse and to relate to you my feelings that I had at 15 which were very close to your's. I know that at times things get tough.There are so many things happening so fast at your age that it may feel that you get overwhelmed and dont know what to do.You have those thoughts and you know that doing those things really are not the answer.When I was 15, I thought those things too.The feelings I felt were real as I know yours are to you..Still, when I was honest with myself  I knew I really wanted to rise above it, feel better about myself, like myself...I realized that I was worthy.I began to see that I just had to be good to me.I wanted to have a future because I deserved it as much as anyone...And so do you!  I can honestly say, that things got better with a little faith and with time..No quick fix.You have to take it a day at a time..Celebrate the good stuff and let the not so good stuff just roll off your back...Tomorrow is another day. I lost my father when I was 15... After,I had some of those same feelings you do. But I realized he loved me very much and he wanted the best for me and cared for me just like I KNOW YOUR PARENTS DO FOR YOU. Trust me, they do care. They have your best interest at heart. I would just say that going back to counsling is a good thing..It can be a safe place to talk about stuff..Sometimes just being able to talk stuff out makes it so much better.It's not easy, I know, I have been there but it just took a little time and faith in myself...I am much ,much older now...I worked through it..Things that bug you now will fade away as you get older, trust me they do...I found  I am a much stronger person then I thought I was at 15. So will you...Faith, hope and courage and loving yourself...I wish you the best and know that others have walked before you and can tell you that life is so good  and you deserve to be happy because you just do!!! Give the counsling another shot and with an open mind...Trust the people that love you..

[mandapanda928]

This is the illness i have, you have some of the symptoms . Read and see if you feel annything that this says if it does. See a therapist. Do not AND DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT. let it beat you ! You are so young and have so much life to live, there will be a lot of good days, you just don't know it yet. Even if you have a personality disorder or a mental illness, half of the world does, probably more. Please talk to me if you feel any of this I feel these things everyday but I'm not going to let it beat me. If you need any help talk to me. I will help you, the best that i can I'll even give you my phone number you can call and talk to me, also something that might help is go to youtube.com and go to Demi Lovoto after rehab she tells her story and what she went through and some of it is the same things as you. But please be safe. and message me back and tell me how your feeling and doing.


The main feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image and emotions. People with borderline personality disorder are also usually very impulsive.

This disorder occurs in most by early adulthood. The unstable pattern of interacting with others has persisted for years and is usually closely related to the person’s self-image and early social interactions. The pattern is present in a variety of settings (e.g., not just at work or home) and often is accompanied by a similar lability (fluctuating back and forth, sometimes in a quick manner) in a person’s emotions and feelings. Relationships and the person’s emotion may often be characterized as being shallow.

A person with this disorder will also often exhibit impulsive behaviors and have a majority of the following symptoms:

    * Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
    * A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
    * Identity disturbance, such as a significant and persistent unstable self-image or sense of self
    * Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating)
    * Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
    * Emotional instability due to significant reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
    * Chronic feelings of emptiness
    * Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
    * Transient, stress-related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms

As with all personality disorders, the person must be at least 18 years old before they can be diagnosed with it.

Borderline personality disorder is more prevalent in females (75 percent of diagnoses made are in females). It is thought that borderline personality disorder affects approximately 2 percent of the general population.

Like most personality disorders, borderline personality disorder typically will decrease in intensity with age, with many people experiencing few of the most extreme symptoms by the time they are in the 40s or 50s.

[bluebear33]

I was a bit like that when I was 13. Almost two years later..um..well lets just say thats why I'm on this site. I completely understand the 'hate going to the counsellor' thing..-to generalize - its just plain awkward. Anyways I would highly recommend talking about it to a close friend (or someone who's a good listener and keeps it to them self). If you feel you still need help ask your parents or GP to book a psychiatrist even just for one session. Believe it or not they'll be very co-operative if you show interest in getting help .  *huggs* and hope it all gets better soon :)