Is it too late... i cut myself and i'm scared i will never stop... my scars will always be there... will i ever be able to move on?

[meg613]

i don't know if i'm posting this in the right place but i'm hoping that be some miracle the right person will read this and give me some life changing advise.

i have had bulemia and started seeing a councellor for that, i was very thin and starded becomeing very ill. a month into therapy i started cutting my arm. it ust sort of happend. i just managed to tell my counceller who it a really lovely women and i am glad i see her.
then i started over dosing quite regularly... nothing fatal. but when i told the councellor how many pills i had taken one day she told me that i could have died.

right now i really whant to overdose and just end it...

i over heard some friends talking about self harm the other day, they do not know about my self harm. one of th guys was aying that he had seen someone with scars on her arm and that it was really disgusting. i will have those scars. i feel digusting and scars are soo permanent.. how will i ever move on if i get through this???? help me please i am soo lost,

[April2]

Please listen to your doctor and see a counselor who specializes in self-harm. They can help in a way your doctor can't because they're trained and deal with this kind of thing every day. Everything you reveal to your counselor remains between you and your counselor. Your counselor will never violate your trust by talking about you to someone else, even your parents unless they feel like you are suicidal or going to hurt someone else. That's the only time they have to reveal anything to your parents or authorities.

My daughter used to cut herself for about 3 years. Yes, you will have permanent scars but you can overcome this with help. My daughter got counseling for about 2 years and then went on a youth retreat and came back to God and turned her life around. She's a different person today and I thank God every day for that. God is good and He does care! He loves you and doesn't want to see you hurt. He wants to set you free so that you can experience peace and joy. You are a worthy person and you are worth it!

I recommend a counselor who is trained in CBT therapy and/or DBT. CBT is cognative behavioral therapy and DBT is dialectic behavioral therapy. Both are very good for people who struggle with the issues that you are struggling with. There is help! There is hope! Don't give up hope.
Get the counseling going, the sooner the better because it will only get worse if you don't deal with it. In the meantime you can try some ways to help overcome the urge to hurt yourself in a few different ways.

1. You can call a friend
2. Take a bubble bath
3. Put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it every time you get the urge to hurt yourself
4. Journal your feelings
5. Try prayer or meditation
6. Go for a walk
7. Get out of the house and meet some friends or family, go somewhere, distract yourself.

Keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. I pray you see the light at the end of the tunnel real soon! God bless you.

[meg613]

thank you for replying
yes she is trying to help me with the self harm. my doctor wants me to see someone who specialises with people who self harm but i really don't want to. it has taken a lot for me to tell my counsellor about my self harm and i now really trust her but it just makes me panic.... the more people that know about my self harm the more it makes me freak out. so far three people know and i really hate that.
i feel like if people know it gives them power over me. and i have a really hard time trusting anyone.

thank you and being cliche is ok sometimes :)

[robrob76]

i am glad that u r seeing a councellor 4 ur bulimia, but has she given u any help or advice about the self harm ?? please tell her or see someone else..u can get better and thru this...sorry if i sound patronising and so cliche..but it doesnt matter what ur friends say..its ur life and u deal with it the way u need to..but dont listen to them..
best of luck...sorry i know im the person with life changing advice but there is alot of people here that do want to help you.
best of luck.