My mom says she's sick of me. . .?

[anne_onummus]

I had a horrible panic attack the other night as I started thinking about my future. I'm a premed freshman in college and I'm terrified I'm making the wrong choice as a career path and will regret it. Being undecided also wastes a lot of time and money in college if I suddenly decide to pursue another career path.  I suffer from depression and social anxiety. I have a hard time making friends and so I have no one to talk to but my mom. Anyways, I told my mom about my panic attack and she didn't really engage me in any conversation. When I told her that her constant lack of interest in anything I say makes me feel hurt and insignificant she got very angry and started shouting. She said it was because I was being stupid. She said she's sick of me always complaining and that she's sick of my constant depression. She said she doesn't care about my problems and that they are trivial. She said she buys me everything I could want so I have no right to be so depressed. She also said that unfortunately she ended up with a kid with issues. My father agrees with her.

So I am upset and though I don't feel anger or hate towards her, I don't think I can go back to our relationship. I know she has her own problems and stress but I can't help but feel betrayed and a little scared. Scared that now I have no one to rely on for emotional support but myself as I try to fight my depression. I'm afraid this is never going to go away and everyone is sick of me.

[violet_genration98]

She loves you no matter what. I think is that she's probably under pressure or worried about you and it's got a bit too much.
As with college; just go along with your current course! It's okay to make mistakes or change career paths; it's taken me several changes for me to settle on what I'm doing now.
my thoughts are with you my friend  xx

[Deanna11]

I don't know your mom but it sounds like she's being selfish. Money doesn't buy happiness. She should be trying to support you emotionally by just being that listening ear for you! I'm sorry that she's not doing that for you and that your dad is taking her side and doing the same thing. You need to find another ear to talk to. If you're unsure of what to do with school and such maybe see and advisor or counselor at your school. They should be able to help! Good luck!