What should i do?

[seasam]

I am 15 years old girl. I am a high school student. I feel angry or i feel sad everyday. I think i have a depression. I can't discuss with any teenager because i don't have any brother or sister and i dont have a friend i can trust. My father works in foreign country and he came back home once a year. My mother works in an embassy. She comes back home at 7:00pm. Whenever i try to tell her how i feel, she never listens to me. I feel so lonely. Whenever she arrives home, she always scolds me because of my studies. I am not the worst student at school. But she never satisfies with me. At that time, i feel so sad and then i become angry. I dont know what to do. What should i do??

[Stacey_80]

I agree with Lulu. At this point, all you can do is to be strong. You are the only one who can help yourself now. Do it for yourself. Be the best that you can be and do not let the problems of the family to bring you down.

If you can also talk to someone, that will be great.

[marie4u]

i think this is normal. it happens to everyone in this age.

[Lulu69cb]

I went through the same thing, Im 19 years old now. I tried my best to talk to her, she never wanted to listen she was always busy my dad and her were divorced.  It lead me to drugs, they had no idea. All i can tell you is be strong, try your best, and please please stay away from drugs. God bless you and Keep it up in school!

[bbabygirl92]

I no how u feel i had my first child at 15 and didnt have my dad around my mom was working and she did drugs and stuff and i have all kind of medical problems including anger and so on and i used to right in my journal about how i felt and its hard to trust people so maybe u can talk to a counselor and find they can give u info on groups ur age that u can go to that has similar or same problems so try other sourses because its so hard wen u have nun to listen to i no ive been there and ive been through a hole lot i no im not the only 1 but just sayin and if u need to u can talk to me if u want

[Tanbear]

Please talk to your school counselor or a teacher that you feel comfortable with.

[jemma116]

How are you Seasam?

I have been thinking of you and  how you can get some help from your mum.

You say that when you try to talk to her she brushes you off because she has no time and won't listen.

How about writing a letter to her and asking her for an appointment when you both can sit down together  and discuss how you feel?

If your mum won't listen to you and you are feeling really low and can't cope with anything, then make an appointment with your doctor.

Hope you get on alright
Best wishes,

[jemma116]

I am not at all surprised you feel the way you do when you can't talk to your mum about things and have no one you trust to get off your chest what is bothering you.

Your body is still growing and developing and you will be going through hormonal changes.  If you have been experiencing these feelings for a while now, would you be able to get an appointment with a school nurse or school doctor or your own doctor so they may help you.

If you are feeling low and tired there is a possibility that you may be anaemic.  I don't know if you have started your menstrual cycle, but around 7-10 days before a menstrual cycle it is normal to have emotional feelings due to the hormonal changes.

If on the other hand you are feeling sad and angry all the time.  This too is a normal reaction to the fact that you feel you have been abandoned by your parents.  In other words, they are showing you no love and affection which you are yearning.  In which case your doctor may be able to refer you to a counsellor who specialises in child and family matters.  

It is a shame your mum never listens to you.  Because, in my view, this is where the route of the problem lies and family counselling could help you and your mum.

When you see your doctor, he will ask you questions or give you a questionnaire to fill in regarding how you feel and your interests in hobbies and how you are coping.  He will then determine whether you have clinical depression.  There is more to depression that just feeling sad and angry.
I understand why you feel sad and angry and I think it would benefit you if your relationship with your parents were sorted out, rather than going on antidepressants at your age.  Antidepressants can make your brain feel foggy and they do not get rid of the cause of the depression.  

Do you have a grandparent or an aunty that you could talk to?