I'm a 15 year old boy from India ,it's been 6 years since this happened ,I was hurt in the right half of my hind brain while playing cricket with a bat .. Everything was spinning at that time but I didn't go unconscious.. I was up in 5 mins ,but it was painful for the rest of the week.. I felt slight dizziness after that ,every now and then .. After 2 years an eye specialist told me that my right eye was damaged ..there are two rasin sized lumps coming from the same nerve which have gone comparative smaller .. The worst part comes now .. I don't feel conscious or alive anymore .. Everything seems like a dream I cry sometimes thinking about it ..at first I thought about suicide but now I've thought about it and I'll never do so .. I feel the winds ,the sunshine but nothing is real ,its like I am trapped in a box .. What is it ?,can it be cured ?, what's the worse that could happen .. I want to live again plz help