i need help

[shaannnonxo]

ok so im only 14 but i have alot of problems. i think i have depression ive cut my self to the part were i pass out , i cant control it, i mean i have good friends good social life but even little things can set me off and my dad bashes me , im failing school and im worryed about my health because no matter how much i sleep im always tired or stressed and i cant take it anymore i dont know what to do

[Didydeanzy]

Its werid how i feel its simular but different, 3 years ago my parents split i wasnt upset but for some reason things have just gone down hill from there, i got anerexic cose i hated myself and i still do i think im and ugly worthless person at skl im quite and get picked on alot i have my close friends but thier not in my classes i hate being at skl atm i juat deel like crying half the time, at home i dont get on with my step dad we fight alot and sometimes he willl hit me  i just hate him cose since he came into my home everythings changed even my mum its like im loosing grip on everything i lost my mates after i got better from anerexia my whole house has changed and so have i, wen im a round my mates i can sometimes forget about it alll but on my own i cant stamd myself but now my moods randomly changing i will b laughing for no reason then crying afew minuets later, afew months ago i met a guy who helps me but after i got drunk my parents blamed him and my step dad kicked him out my house and made my mum and everyone make sure i never saw him again things got worse as he was my life line i agree tht he did make me start thinking about self harmong but it helped me ao much instead f not earing i hurt myself instead it just meens i can see my mates cose wen i was anerexic i couldnt go out or move cose i could hav died, im easyly addicted to things and have anger issues and control issues after all these changes my grades at skl are dropping masively and im ddoing my gcses now i i smoke and carnt deal without it i drink exsesivley and do drugs and cut myself regulary, i also hav a large group of depressed friends one of them has curentsly been removed from his house and put under 24 hour supervision so he carnt kill himself although i feel upset alot of the time telling how ifeel is deificult i feel emptey and holow like im not me anymore i can barley keep myself on the ground and will do anything to feel better but sometimes i purposeley make myself upset so i can feel somthing but this nothingless im acsouse and worried of everyday i can barely sleep i just dont know wat to do i know if i told my mum she would make me stop smoking drinking and cuting which is everything tht makes me feel good and stop me going out to see my mates which are the only things i live for i know without them i wouldnt care about killing myself its only with them do i start to feel normal i know i need help but im stuck i hav no idea what to do :( im hoping by posting this it might help but i dought it all i want is to. Felll right again but its never gunna happen

[Penguins57]

I also find exercise makes u feel amazing, and if you like pain, then work out to the point where ur muscles hurt very bad. It's the same effect, but it's good for youu.
And if you ever need someone to talk to, please message me. I would try to help you to the best of my ability.!

[bcbudqueen420]

Cutting is an addictive thing, I once did it too and it is in no way right. What do you do on a daily basis? What could be the cause of depression? Or do you feel depressed for no reason?

[JuliaG13]

Hi, im 15 and was diagnosed with depression about a year ago. i still suffer quite badly when a problem hits me but i find that exercise and drinking LOADS of water helps!!! that is really the only thing that i use to calm myself- i havent seen a therapist or taken any meds, even though my doctor wants me to see someone. i told my friends and they were all really supportive, so if you havent, try that. i know someone who claims she has depression, but the only thing that is stopping people from thinking has it is because she tells everyone she meets (as if she wants attention)- so if you do tell your friends dont talk about it all the time because they may find it a bit annoying. i have absoloutely no idea if this will help but i really hope it does- you are in NO way alone!! i know someone who really helps on here, he is called x98rt  and he really got me through the tough patches of telling my parents.

[Audrey_Creed]

Talk to someone. Is there a school counselor that you can go to? Mention all of this to them, they can offer a lot more advice than many people think.  As far as cutting goes, it's really difficult to stop, i know that cuz i've been there too. Try getting rid of whatever you use to cut. Just throw it away. Even if it's the same thing you use to shave, just go hairy for a little while. Talk to an adult you trust. It sounds ridiculous and you've probably heard it all too much, but it really does help and things really do get better.

[shaannnonxo]

thanks for the advice..