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maybe im crazy..?
well im 15 yrs old...im trying to figure myself out....i think im going crazy...im losing my self esteem..im losing my life and have started to think about committing suicide...i hate life!!! whats the point..omg you just live and die...i started poppin pain killers and just got this incredible feeling but im now thinking wow im dumb to do that....i want to committ suicide so bad but dont know what way i shuld do it...and maybe my life culd get better in the future..who knows? i dont really believe in god anymore..if there was a god wuldnt he make me happy instead of miserable!!!i mean holy ****!!!! just so many thots running through my head..and im dumb for not saying anything to the guy i really liked before he died!!!!!!! god wtf!!!! you never know what you have til its GONE!!!and now i know.....everything is just going down hill for me....can anyone hear me!!!!??? hello???? no one listens to me anymore....i miss my normal life..why cant i have it back!!! why is there so many thots about suicide running through my head!!! i hate it...if anyone knows how i feel please say sumthin to me!!!! i feel like im going crazy...my thots are making me go crazy and lose my life!!! how do i deal with it??? if i tell anyone ...they prolly wont listen to me ..they just wont understand.....help me plz!!!!!!!
I kinda know what you are going through ...I am 15 and very depressed...I have thought about suicide and cut myself ...but you need to try to see the brighter things in life ...belive me it will get better...and also I still belive in god...im not saying you have to but since I do ...I always feel bad when someone stops beliving ...and I'm not saying I've never thought maybe he's not real...but I never gave up....so please don't give up on life ..remember it gets better
Do me a favour next time your outside look around what do you see you will see trees people dogs children playing with their parents happy people you can be there to life is vary hard at times and things never seem to get better. But I promise they will I was told something once I was at my lowest I was in a shelter for abused women at that time I felt like my whole world was crashing before my eyes everything I had worked so hard to achieve gone it was terrible I was told something there if you think positive. Positive things will happen I didn't believe it well wouldn't belive it things for me were all wrong then one day I woke up a thought to myself maybe I should try what she said things can't get any worse and I did this happend in Dec 2007 two days after christmas not the best present but everyday after I was told this things got a little better now I have my own house my daughters are happy and I am happy I even decided to go to college in Jan to be a social Worker so I can help people. 15 is a hard age but you can make it it might take a lot of hard work but you will do it and you never know maybe when your 25 like myself you will be helping a young girl having the same problems as you everything bad that happens only makes us stronger and as far as those girls go keep your head held high be proud of who you are and what you can accomplish think about where will those girls be in 10 years and where are you going to be in 10 years all you have to do is get through highschool and after that there is a whole wide world out there waiting to be exsplored your a smart girl take that and go with it and please always remember things do get better and there are people that love you for you
What you need to do is get help now. You MUST tell your mom what is going on. You need to talk to a professional. It's possible that an anti-depressant could help you feel better along with some counseling but I'm not a professional. I can't diagnose you. What I can tell you is you need to get help NOW. Don't wait. If you are having suicidal thoughts call the suicide hotline. It's anonymous and someone there can talk to you. That can be your first step. Then do whatever you need to do to get help. Don't let this get any worse. Here are the numbers you can call. Talk to someone. They are there to help. You can remain anonymous. Just please talk to someone. Then come back on here and tell me what they say. I care, ok? Let me know how you're doing. Hugs to you.
1-800-SUICIDE 1-800-273-TALK
1-800-784-2433 1-800-273-8255
1-800-SUICIDE 1-800-273-TALK
1-800-784-2433 1-800-273-8255
i am starting to get worse!!! i think sumthing is wrong with me...ok so every once in a while i get a depression breakdown and start crying and just having these crazy suicidal thoughts and then between a half hour to an hour then im fine...
im so scared....what could this be??? shuld i get on some meds??? am i going crazy?? :( please tell me what this culd be...i dont know what is wrong with me...i want to get better but its just getting worse...maybe its the loss of my friend i dont know....i think im pushing my friends away too and i feel soo alone but the thing is that i think i just want to be alone.....idk im just soo confused.... what if i just cant take it anymore and kill myself...oh my gosh i think that might happen soon..these depressing thoughts just make me go crazy...what should i do?
im so scared....what could this be??? shuld i get on some meds??? am i going crazy?? :( please tell me what this culd be...i dont know what is wrong with me...i want to get better but its just getting worse...maybe its the loss of my friend i dont know....i think im pushing my friends away too and i feel soo alone but the thing is that i think i just want to be alone.....idk im just soo confused.... what if i just cant take it anymore and kill myself...oh my gosh i think that might happen soon..these depressing thoughts just make me go crazy...what should i do?
Lol, yeah guys think about sex a LOT at your age. It settles down after awhile. And it's true, it's as old as time. Guys will be eager enough to have sex if you give it to them but it's like a conquest, you know? It's like a challenge. Once they've got the prize they quickly lose interest. Just be careful that you don't lead them on or tease them because it can be awfully hard to stop once you've started something. Have respect for yourself, girl! What you are giving away is precious. It shouldn't be taken lightly. It should be given only to the man you marry. Make him wait! If he won't wait then he's not worth it. If he won't wait it will show you that he was only after sex after all. Just get to know the guy. Go out to eat, etc. and talk. Talk about your interests and his, your dreams, what you want out of life. You are more than a body! And guys need to understand that!
As for the advice, I guess I have a heart for teens. I really do, especially after the rough time my daughter went through. It really opened up my eyes to so much. So I guess I notice hurting teens more now. She was suicidal, depressed and cutting at one point. I've gotten very protective of her and people judging her. She's a sweet girl and I just want people to look at that, the inside, and not the scars on her arms. She's learning to stand up more for herself too. But I talk to her a lot and I think the counseling really helped a lot. She was in counseling for almost 2 years.
See if your parents will let you talk to a counselor. Most accept most insurances, if not there's always a school counselor or pastor who wouldn't charge and they're trained in counseling. Maybe there's a self-esteem class you could take or something? Check things out. Some schools offer that for after school programs. Of course, we're in Summer now but maybe in the fall.
And since sports made you feel better when you did it, I'd get back into that or maybe Karate or something physical. It really will make you feel better.
I wish you well. Remember, hold your head up and believe in yourself. You deserve the best! (((Hugs)))
April
As for the advice, I guess I have a heart for teens. I really do, especially after the rough time my daughter went through. It really opened up my eyes to so much. So I guess I notice hurting teens more now. She was suicidal, depressed and cutting at one point. I've gotten very protective of her and people judging her. She's a sweet girl and I just want people to look at that, the inside, and not the scars on her arms. She's learning to stand up more for herself too. But I talk to her a lot and I think the counseling really helped a lot. She was in counseling for almost 2 years.
See if your parents will let you talk to a counselor. Most accept most insurances, if not there's always a school counselor or pastor who wouldn't charge and they're trained in counseling. Maybe there's a self-esteem class you could take or something? Check things out. Some schools offer that for after school programs. Of course, we're in Summer now but maybe in the fall.
And since sports made you feel better when you did it, I'd get back into that or maybe Karate or something physical. It really will make you feel better.
I wish you well. Remember, hold your head up and believe in yourself. You deserve the best! (((Hugs)))
April
im not really getting bullied just alot of girls in my skool think im a big **** and call me anerexic...i cant help that i have a high metabalism..i eat alot but i dont gain a thing.....anyways your saying that i shuldnt give into sex right away?? hey maybe that will work...im always the one getting hurt and maybe thats actually the reason why is because im giving into guys.....guys respect you more if you put off sex for awhile??? wow im going to try that next time...maybe thats why the 19 yr old that i was with left me.....wow im stupid....but why do guys have to be all about sex..i hate that!!! do they even have feelings....you know talking to sum1 who gives good advice really dus help...thank you!...
no im not in any sports..but as soon as i quit sports which was in 8th grade...i then started feeling soo low and began thinking about suicide cuz i wasnt active anymore and just i dont know....my head is finally starting to clear...i was a confusing mess but now sum things are clearing out....this is helping me...do you just give everyone advice then or what
no im not in any sports..but as soon as i quit sports which was in 8th grade...i then started feeling soo low and began thinking about suicide cuz i wasnt active anymore and just i dont know....my head is finally starting to clear...i was a confusing mess but now sum things are clearing out....this is helping me...do you just give everyone advice then or what
What rude comments are you talking about? Are you being bullied at school? My daughter went through that in middle school. It was so hard. I had to finally pull her out of that school and put her in a new school because it just went on and on and it did damage her self-esteem too. I had to get counseling for her for awhile too.
I understand that you want someone to love you, believe me I do! But the thing is, if you give yourself too freely to a guy he will lose respect and interest in you. It's sad and unfair but unfortunately true. Guys want sex. Girls want love. But if you will be careful and choosy you can find a great guy. But take it slow. Get to know the guy real well. If he seems to care more about himself, drop him. He's not worth it. Find someone who will put your interests first, someone who will respect you, someone who will like you for who you are, not how you look or whether you will "put out" or not.
The danger in liking older guys is that they usually are guys who can't get girls their own age, for whatever reason. I'd wonder why they can't get girls their own age to be interested in them. What is it about them that puts the girls off? Any decent guy over the age of 18 would know better than date a young teen like you. They know the danger in that. Try and find someone who has high morals. Take your time. You're young. You've got lot's of time to look for Mr. Right. Don't just settle for Mr. Wrong because it's taking too long to find Mr. Right, ok? Does that make sense?
Do you belong to any kind of sport or youth group? Try and find something you can do that will get you out and meeting other people in a safe environment. Do you like Karate? The exercise and discipline can do wonders to build up your self-esteem. Just try and go out and have fun with your friends right now. Youth groups usually have fun things for the teens to do and it's a safe place to meet others around your age.
Again, I'd recommend some counseling for a little while to help build up your self-esteem. I'm not a counselor but I can give you a few tips. Start believing in yourself, for one thing. Don't believe rude comments. Keep reminding yourself that it's their problem, not yours. For someone to be rude must mean they're insecure themselves. Did you ever think about that? People that are secure in who they are and are happy don't go around making rude comments to people and put others down. So remind yourself that they must be having a bad day or maybe things are going so well for them at home.
Find something to do that will make you feel good about yourself and help others. Is there some type of volunteer work you might be interested in? Habitat for Humanity always needs people to help build houses for the poor. Hospitals need people willing to rock newborn babies in NICU. Soup kitchens need help feeding the hungry and poor. Find something that you can do that would help others. And you know what? When you do that, you will feel so good about yourself! It really works! When you help someone else, it makes you feel better about yourself. So everybody wins!
Anyway, those are just my suggestions. You can take them or leave them. I hope that you will start to feel better about yourself. And hang in there. High school can be kinda rough but it gets much better once you're out on your own! I wish you well. God bless.
I understand that you want someone to love you, believe me I do! But the thing is, if you give yourself too freely to a guy he will lose respect and interest in you. It's sad and unfair but unfortunately true. Guys want sex. Girls want love. But if you will be careful and choosy you can find a great guy. But take it slow. Get to know the guy real well. If he seems to care more about himself, drop him. He's not worth it. Find someone who will put your interests first, someone who will respect you, someone who will like you for who you are, not how you look or whether you will "put out" or not.
The danger in liking older guys is that they usually are guys who can't get girls their own age, for whatever reason. I'd wonder why they can't get girls their own age to be interested in them. What is it about them that puts the girls off? Any decent guy over the age of 18 would know better than date a young teen like you. They know the danger in that. Try and find someone who has high morals. Take your time. You're young. You've got lot's of time to look for Mr. Right. Don't just settle for Mr. Wrong because it's taking too long to find Mr. Right, ok? Does that make sense?
Do you belong to any kind of sport or youth group? Try and find something you can do that will get you out and meeting other people in a safe environment. Do you like Karate? The exercise and discipline can do wonders to build up your self-esteem. Just try and go out and have fun with your friends right now. Youth groups usually have fun things for the teens to do and it's a safe place to meet others around your age.
Again, I'd recommend some counseling for a little while to help build up your self-esteem. I'm not a counselor but I can give you a few tips. Start believing in yourself, for one thing. Don't believe rude comments. Keep reminding yourself that it's their problem, not yours. For someone to be rude must mean they're insecure themselves. Did you ever think about that? People that are secure in who they are and are happy don't go around making rude comments to people and put others down. So remind yourself that they must be having a bad day or maybe things are going so well for them at home.
Find something to do that will make you feel good about yourself and help others. Is there some type of volunteer work you might be interested in? Habitat for Humanity always needs people to help build houses for the poor. Hospitals need people willing to rock newborn babies in NICU. Soup kitchens need help feeding the hungry and poor. Find something that you can do that would help others. And you know what? When you do that, you will feel so good about yourself! It really works! When you help someone else, it makes you feel better about yourself. So everybody wins!
Anyway, those are just my suggestions. You can take them or leave them. I hope that you will start to feel better about yourself. And hang in there. High school can be kinda rough but it gets much better once you're out on your own! I wish you well. God bless.
what if i dont know how to build up my self-esteem...am i just suppose to ignore the rude comments said to me and even tho it really hurts me...i cant just ignore things and thats my problem...how am i spose to love myself...all i want is for sum1 to love me and show that they care about me....and how am i looking for love in the wrong places??? is it really wrong to like older guys?? i just hate being alone....
Oh Sweetie, my heart just goes out to you. Yes, it DOES get better! The teen years are just so hard to get through, I think. Suicide is not the answer. It's a permant solution to a temporary problem. We only have one life and it's precious. YOU are precious! Let me tell you a little something about God and how He works. He doesn't MAKE you happy and He doesn't MAKE you miserable. You are resposbile and in control of your own emotions. He has given you a free will. That means you are free to make GOOD choices and you are free to make BAD choices. It's up to you. He will not control you like a puppet. That's not what He wants. He wants you to come to Him on your OWN free will. He wants our love and worship to be sincere. He doesn't want robots. If He had wanted robots he would have made robots, not humans with human emotions and feelings.
I think it would be a good idea to talk to someone about how you're feeling. I think part of the reason you're thinking about death so much is because you lost someone dear to you and I'm so sorry about that. That had to be hard. But as you've shown, it also showed you how precious life is and how we should't just throw it away.
I've read both of your posts and I feel like maybe you're looking for love in all the wrong places. I think you may think you have to give a guy what they want in order to keep them and that's just not so! You need to learn to love yourself first before you look for someone else to love you. You need to build up your self-esteem a little bit and start believing in yourself. Don't throw away something precious. You are better than that! You are obviously someone who cares about people and feel things deeply. I know it's hard as a teen sometimes but just hang in there. It really does get better, I promise! What I'd like to see you do right now is start believing in yourself and take good care of yourself. Only then can you have a healthy relationship with a boy or anyone really. You may need help with this. That's why I think some counseling for awhile might really benefit you. If you can't afford one, most pastors will do it for free. But ask your parents if you can talk to a counselor for awhile to sort out all your feelings, etc. and see what they say. I wish you the best. Keep your chin up and don't give up. You are worth it. (((HUGS)))
April
I think it would be a good idea to talk to someone about how you're feeling. I think part of the reason you're thinking about death so much is because you lost someone dear to you and I'm so sorry about that. That had to be hard. But as you've shown, it also showed you how precious life is and how we should't just throw it away.
I've read both of your posts and I feel like maybe you're looking for love in all the wrong places. I think you may think you have to give a guy what they want in order to keep them and that's just not so! You need to learn to love yourself first before you look for someone else to love you. You need to build up your self-esteem a little bit and start believing in yourself. Don't throw away something precious. You are better than that! You are obviously someone who cares about people and feel things deeply. I know it's hard as a teen sometimes but just hang in there. It really does get better, I promise! What I'd like to see you do right now is start believing in yourself and take good care of yourself. Only then can you have a healthy relationship with a boy or anyone really. You may need help with this. That's why I think some counseling for awhile might really benefit you. If you can't afford one, most pastors will do it for free. But ask your parents if you can talk to a counselor for awhile to sort out all your feelings, etc. and see what they say. I wish you the best. Keep your chin up and don't give up. You are worth it. (((HUGS)))
April
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