Hi, firstly i am sorry bcause i can't help you. But i want you know that you'r not the only one that felt it. Me too.. I know what you felt. Uhm, you know, we are like a moon.. A moon which always looked shined, beautifull and seem like noone could breaked it down, but inside we had much lump, we are fraglie, we are bad..
And noone ever noticed it, bcause they just looked into our beutifull cover :/ Huft~
Unless you have ambitions to be a film star you should be content with the face etc that you have. If you feel that you have Clinical Depression then you should see a Doc/Psych. No shame in that, if you need help ~ ask! Diagnosis is not possible online. Support;/sharing experiences etc, but no diagnosis. You are young, value that, it doesn't last long, make the most of it, try to be active in whatever way you can. If your friends don't suit you then perhaps you can find out why, ask them. Perhaps you expect everyone to live up to unrealistic standards that you have set?Please don't waste your life by not taking an active part in it. Life is always going to give problems, if you can learn to solve them it becomes more interesting~ no one gets a free ride, you have the chance to show how much you can do by passing your exams, helping others, being friends ~& smile more. You have so much to be glad about, the fact that you can't see that means that you probably need some professional help, but maybe you can sort things out alone? Continued unhappiness is not healthy. Seek help if you feel you need it. Good luck