I used to always think that I was a very nice person who always felt bad for things, and who wanted the best for other people. But I've come to realize that I dont care about anyone exept for myself. All of the bad things ive done ive felt no remorse.
ex:
- I stole 4 notebooks from a class I had from students (who failed the notebook test because of this).
- I cant stop stealing makeup. Im obcessed with it, and its unhealthy. yesterday I threw away a bag of makeup because i need to stop.
- I have a boyfriend who seriously treats me like a princess and does anything for me and he even got me a promise ring, and i have cheated on him numerous times. I cant tell if i love him, or if i just want to use him.
-When my mom got cancer and she was crying i didnt even want to confort her. I tried, because i didnt want her to be mad and hit me or something.
I want to feel bad for things but i seriously dont. I cant think of anything that i've done that i feel bad for. Im really scared that I will become a murderer or something.