Been MIA b/c of depression

[proudarmywife05]

After my TT, I've had major issues and ended back up in teh Er. not only that I've had lots of depression and psychological issues.

I decided I'm tired of "not living my life" so I went to talk to the USAF recruiter, and got turned down, but not for thyroid cancer. but for having a sona nd being married to military (im appealing it).

Im so sick of feeling tired
and people staring at my neck
and not knowing the future
and i want a career

I cant find a job, not even one I dont want to do!
I almost have myb achelors and i cant even get a job that only requires a diploma around here b/c THERE ARE NONE!

Depression really sucks.....

[Nicki1433]

Rachel,

I also am suffering from depression, getting better everyday though.  I tried and tried to deal with it on my own, for about 9 months and finally called the doctor about a month ago.  I know that you have a little one.  Try calling your OBGYN and discussing it.  They can be much more sensitive.  I cried the whole way through the conversation on the phone with him and he didn't make me come in.  He prescribed me Lexapro and I started feeling better almost instantly.  I am still really tired but I think that also has to do with thyroid issues.  

Hope you feel better soon.

Nicki

[ChitChatNine]

I was going to post to see how you are doing?   The Wellbutrin is new to you, right?  Maybe it is making you feel worse???? I know that sounds bizarre but was worth an off-the-wall thought ....

Do all anti-depressents work the same when we are hypo-induced big time in prep for RAI?  I've wondered about that.

C~

[Lightsmsb]

Hello Rachel,

I wish I could tell you "I know what your going thru" but I cannot.  All I can say is like Roman said, get some really funny movies or anything to make you laugh.  Laughter is the best thing for anyone.  I know you can get through all of this and you have a wonderful support family right here.  Like utahmomma said talk with your doc.

Hoping to see smiles soon!

cheers,
Scott

[proudarmywife05]

I got some candles tonight! I'm feeling sad b/c DH leaves for 6 months tomorrow..so that doesnt help..that and I cant find a job. and i feel like ****. LOL

Im going to call teh dr next week to change my meds...i seriously am so down it sucks... :(

~Rachel

[proudarmywife05]

I'm getting better..not really im lying

Im on Wellbutrin..and its not helping. I keep saying im gonna ask for something else but im sick of making an appointmet and going to the dr ya know??

Last night I slept 7 pm to 730 am, :) felt great!!

~Rachel

[ChitChatNine]

:::)))

[utahmomma]

How are you doing today???

[ChitChatNine]

ROTFLOL ................................ I get a triple smile as my signature line ... according to Utahmomma I get it for the other mini-surgey 1/4" above the thryoid line which, btw, is healing very nicely !!!!!!

Cheryl :::))) ... proud member of the triple smiley club ::wink wink::

[malawi]

rachel
just wanted to say "hang in there" things will get better for you...whenever depression hit me i threw in a couple of funny movies and laughed myself silly..always seemed to help
Roman

[scarlet37]

YESSSSSSSSSSS.........................lol


I always look forward to your postings- you keep us all in check and up to date with each other also too  from what I read today even pulled out a few lurkers ! It's a blessing for all of us and a joy to read what comes next. I'm not sure I would have made it through the darkest days if I hadn't read the latest thyroid news via your posts.


Don't stop!!!

Thanks for being here =))

Teresa

[artsyrose]

if ya get a triple smiley ya hafta do a triple wink, too ya know....

[KathyD]

So sorry you are feeling depressed.  I made sure my doc put me on something the day after the TT.  I am on Lexapro and so far so good.  I know we are pretty much doing things about the same.  He tested my TSH today and said it was high enough that they have sent the orders to the hospital to do the RAI.  Hang in there. I haven't been able to work either and really who would want me right now.  Take TIME...get rest and when you are feeling better IF you can....wait till the right situation pops up.  If not there are a million jobs available here in NO.....in fact anyone looking for a job they are paying tons of $$ because there are no employees!!! :)  Anyway hope you get to feeling better and looks like I will be in the hospital Easter week should find out any day now.  

[ChitChatNine]

Ut oh ..... when I "stop talking" is it time to worry?

C~

[scarlet37]

Rachel-

   Keep your chin up!  I know exactly how you feel- I was there a few weeks ago---- Not sure what I did to get through except visit this site about 50 times a day- and thank god for Cheryl she always has something new to post or talk about.
  You've been through alot the last few months- sit down take a hot bath- light the candles and breathe!!
  We're here for you- vent and whine all you like- God knows I have!!!

  ~~ sending angels your way~~

   Teresa

[proudarmywife05]

thank you everyone, im just so stressed but dont even have the energy to stress!!!!

~Rachel

[venora]

Hey sis We know how it feels to go what you are going throgh.Utahmomma and chitchatnine have very good ideas for you. but cut yourself some slack.You ahve gone thorugh 2 major surgereries in less than a months time.
This stuff takes time to heal emotionally as well as physically.Not to mention the hypohell we go through.It will get better I promise.Talk to your doc and let them know .Like Utahmomma said maybe an antidepressant will help for the now.hang in there and know we are pulling for you
Love venora

[ChitChatNine]

Rachel, I talked to a counselor thru a non-profit Cancer organization and it really helped me alot ... pls. reach out and talk to someone ... it is normal to feel so depressed .. they took out a part of you ... not just physically, but it is emotional too!

Don't worry about the career and the future right now .. it WILL all fall into place ...  keep reminding yourself you had the TT to ensure you will be here for a very long time to be a wonderful wife, and mom!  It takes time to heal and sometimes some help from a medication is needed and that is okay, too.

Keep us posted,
C~

[utahmomma]

Oh honey, I am so sorry!  Please, please talk to a doctor about the depression.  After my RAI (and the TSH hypohell) I was so very depressed.  All I could think about was wanting to die.  Please, please, tell a doctor how depressed you are.  I didn't realize how bad off I was until my doctor put me on Celexa.  Now the sky is blue and there is hope.  Don't give up - please get help.  You have so many wonderful things ahead of you - please get help.  So many of us are on antidepressants, it's okay to ask for help.

HUGS and LOVE!!!