This thyroid is making me crazy!!. I really hate to write a long post, but I feel typing what I am feeling will calm my nerves so here goes. I would also like to share my story and appreciate any advice.
I am 31 years old now, but I was diagnosed with graves disease when I was 20 years old. I was severly hyperthyroid. I was happy and recently married at that time before it all began. It made me feel crazy like I was on a evil roller coaster ride. It got me down to 90 pounds. Well "it"ruined my marriage quickly( and I know it"was my thyriod disease) for 5 years it could not be controlled. I was taking up tp 12 pill of Tapazole and PTU at that time. It gave me anxiety and depression and ugly bulging eyes. I had a thyroid storm, I was over medicated and became hypo and was sent to emergency room. I was taken off meds and hyper came back full force. I am crying as I type this, I just want to feel normal. In 2001 I got the RAI.Shortly After that, thyroid became normal. I became normal. I felt normal. I gained a little weight and Was happy. Eyes looked better. I had kids and remarried. Everything was great. In 2006, I started to feel a little weird again, but this time mood swings, anxiety, etc.. Thyroid was checked and I was told I had subclinical hypothyroid. Well I choose tnot to get on meds. I wanted the wait and see if it got better. For for one year, my thyroid jumped back and forth to normal to subclincal hypo. SO you can imagine mood swings etc.. again. I am still fairly thin my weight has jumped back and forth to 110 to 120. So in December 2006 thyroid was hypo. no meds. Then rechecked in Feb. 2007 back to normal. I moved out of state and went to a new Endo. In April 2007 my thyroid was rechecked with all other T4, t3, antibodies etc. Every thing was normal except the TSH was a was 6.42 Doc said I didnt have to start meds as long as I didnt have any symptoms. But eventually I would down the line. Now I am still thin 120 and eat alot, but I am always cold (hands and feet and tired. My biggest fear was to start meds so I was getting it checked frequently. I got so paranoid of taking levoxyl or synthoid because i didnt want to lose wait or feel hyper. Well last month, my hair started failing out and I started feeling depressed and tired through out the day. So I called the doc and labs wer redone in July this year and my TSH went over 7. SO I was put on .25mcg of Levoxyl. I have been on it for one month, but I hate the thought of taking meds. I did feel a bettter better after 2 weeks, (more energy) I dont want to lose weight and I feel hungry all the time. Can the hyper come back? Now feel a little anxious and depressed. Cold and hungry all the time. Hair is falling out. I dont understand cause I feel hypo and hyper. Now I feel I having eye problems again and a little neck pressure. I see an opthamalogist on Tues and the endo next week for the 6 week check up after starting the lexoxyl. I just want to get of these meds. It think my husband is getting frustrated with me and doesnt understand. He thinks im crazy. Does your body do weird things adjusting to the meds? Well I have to have my friends and family call me daily as well as my husband have to make me take the lexoxyl. I am so afraid of meds and one little gland in my neck.