Is it just me or what????

I look in the mirror and wonder who it is looking back at me with a swollen neck puffy tired eyes and wrinkles alll over the heck and fat!!!
I feel like  the same old semi truck keeps backing up and driving over me again and again.
How long before I feel alive and myself...how long before my feet feel good and my butt and belly go away...how long before my metabolisum returns...
when will I get out of bed in the morning (instead of 1am 300am 5am) and say good morning world I feel good today!!!
How long before I don't want to cry at a commercial about dog in the pound or want to scream obsenities at my husband because he spoke to me or just looked at me at the wrong time...
When do I become the me I remember???
Do I ever get me back or have I permenatly become this emotional bit-zch monster who cna't stand to be around anyone including herself...
.anybody out there relating to me on any of this or am I uniquely alone on this one???? Feeling very sad today....
Lisa

[Justicemom]

Your not alone...I was barely able to do two days in a row at work this week...I broke down in tears after reading an article in the paper yesterday too...still sweating like a pig...The worst of all is that I'm having to buy clothes for Spring Break, and the 20+ pounds I've put on over the last year from the nasty thyroid are making me very sad!

[Jenipeni]

Darling Lisa,
You just described me about 2-3 months ago.  It took me about 9 weeks post TT to start to feel remotely like myself again (I'm at 15 weeks now).  We are still trying to get my dosage right too, but I have left those days behind I hope.
Oh how I relate to crying at puppies on TV!  It didn't take much for me either.  The fatigue and general grumpiness, all so familiar.
I don't know if this idea could help you but what I did was make myself a list that I posted around the house, of things to do to help me feel better (to look at when it was too hard to think of these things myself at the time).
Here's my list for example;
-15 to 20 minutes of moderate exercise (good endorphins)
-Drink 2 litres of fresh water per day
-Protein drinks when you don't feel like eating
-Try to eat 5 portions of fruit and veg per day
-Do some deep breating exercises
-Get outside and get some vitamin D from the sun
-Take your vitamin supplements
-Try and get to bed before 10pm

All I can say is take it one day at a time.  Do you like comedy, maybe hire a few comedies?  
You will get there, only we are all different and will take different lengths of time to get there.  Hopefully you'll get there before I did...
Hang in there... there's always open ears here for you!
God Bless you
Jenipeni

[Mavs3982]

Im sorry youre feeling that way, Lisa. I cant say much because I feel the EXACT WAY YOU DO. My posts are all over the board and if youve read any of them, you will see how bad Ive been feeling, too. I just had a TT, I am hot/having heat intolerance, cant sleep, and miserable.

:(

I send hugs.

[venora]

BIG GIANT E_HUGS for you sis.I am there with you.
It does get better I promise.You are not alone.Weep a little weep and then do something special for your self.
I put on some makeup and fix my hair even though I dont feel like it and that helps.Maybe a candlelit dinner. or something on those lines.
You are loved.
Love venora

[Annette24]

I feel your pain Lisa. Ive found myself crying for no paticular reason at times, from reading a sad part in a book, listening to a song, from thoughts in my head. If someone said something that i didnt like, I would just get so emotional, I thought i was going Crazy. Cheer up though, Ive learned that things could me much worse. Just continue to pray, God hears you :)

[lil dollie]

I have to say, I have felt horrible as well. I have heat intolerance, I just feel like I am going to break out into a sweat just walking around in dept. stores. I am tired of having heart palps from just doing a little bit of nothing. I also get emotional very easy and get very annoyed by others when I am out in public. One day I will feel pretty good, but the next will be a whole different story. Even though I am hyperthyroid I have a lot of the same symptoms as hypo but only some are a little different. My mother and aunt is hypo but they also get hot easily as well.Once your thyroid goes crazy so does your whole body. I just tell myself it is only my thyroid doing this to me and eventually it will get better and there are a whole lot of other things out there that is worse. I try very hard not to stress over things I can't control but sometimes that is easier said than done. Oh well, I guess I will just take this one day at a time and hopefully one day we will all feel better.

[tiredpuppy]

All and I mean all of your comments are dear to me...it is so good to just write what you feel no matter how ickky and know that you feel or have felt it too! Thanks so much, and I know I know tommarrow is another day and I may be up and I may be down but for sure I will be one or the other!!! Thanks again....
Lisa

[utahmomma]

I would have written sooner but just got home from job #2 in my 16-hour work day!  :-(

I'm right there with you.  Yesterday I talked to my doctor about the depression that won't go away and he put me on different antidepressants.  

I cry all the time, I want to scream the rest of the time.  I can't stop gaining weight.  I want the hot flashes and sweats to go away.  I want the insomnia and fatigue to disappear.  I can't stop thinking that things will always be this way and will never get better and i just want to give up.  I just want it all to STOP!!

I'm there with you.  

I'M HERE TO HELP YOU THROUGH IT TOO!  It's easier to carry others burdens than our own sometimes.  

LOVE AND HUGS!!!

[ChitChatNine]

I've been concerned about you working the 16hr shifts with all that is on your plate.  Are you doing ok .. getting enough rest?  I'm concerned, yet I do understand you have to work and it isn't bcz your want to work .. ::::: e-hugs friend:::::  C~

[artsyrose]

I was just thinking the same thing that cheryl was about  those 16 hour days...are you sure you are you doing ok? well...you know what I mean...I know you are NOT ok...but gee...what about that boyfriend...why does he not get off his but and help you instead of complaining about you working two jobs???? what is with that??? good god...he should WANT to help! I don't mean to down him..but....he really should, unless you are a "stand on your on" sort...and that I understand...but sometimes we just have to take help when we need it for our health and sanity, girfriend!

[utahmomma]

Hey, I'm coping.  Thanks for asking!!  Somehow I'll get through all of this.  I think the Celexa is already starting to help.

Boyfriend.  Hmmmm - long story.  Yeah, he helps where he can but his plate is very full too.  What's killing me is the insurance costs, copays, (son's psychiatric stuff), non-covered medications, deductibles, etc.!!  It's seriously running me about $1400 a month just to keep up with it all.  So I really have no choice but to work the 2nd job.

I just got my schedule from that 2nd job for next weekend.  I'm there until 11p.m. Friday night then back at 5:30 a.m. the next morning.   Hmmmm, my 20 years of management experience and Master's degree tell me that someone in HR has no clue what they are doing!!!  :-)  (and this is a huge, national company)

Last night I got home exhausted and hurting (it's very physical work) and just sunk into a hot bath with a glass of wine.  I needed that.

Hugs to you all and sorry I haven't been posting as much lately.

[EmpatheticJenny]

Hi, Lisa--

I was on a borrowed computer when I read your comments yesterday, and when I tried to post a reply, something went technologically wrong. You have been on my mind ever since. There is no way I would have failed to come back to this thread eventually to say: I am relating to you ONE HUNDRED PERCENT!! I am even relating to the question, "Am I uniquely alone on this one?" I went through a long, long spell of wondering "Do I ever get me back?" I was so afraid that the answer might be, "Maybe...maybe not" that I did not have the courage to ask my endocrinologist the question for quite a long time.

Now I am realizing that when, in thread after thread, I saw the comment "It will get better," the comment really did apply to me, not just to everyone except me. I am a lot farther along the road to recovery than you are, though. At your point in the journey, I think it is difficult to believe that although you might return to normal, it will not require more decades of waiting than what you have left in your life. I recognize virtually every word of what you said, and all of it is so vividly familiar that I am going to be merciful and NOT say something trite such as "hang in there." Let me just say: Did you ever imagine that someday, "patience" would become a four-letter word?

Sending you a big e-hug,
Jenny

[Tahnee76]

I am so happy to know that I am the only one that is dealing with this! I almost started crying just reading these posts. On top of me crying at stupid commercials or yelling because my poor husband says something that sets me off I am breaking out like CRAZY all over my face, chest and back. I was just diagnosed with hypothyroidism about a month ago and since I have been on the medication I have been feeling this way and breaking out. The good news is that I am not as tired everyday now, but that is really the only thing that I am noticing that is positive. When will this go away?
I also read that some people were having nausea associated with hypothyroidism. Was this a symptom of hypo or is it something else? My doctor said that he thought it was a little bit from hypo but also a UTI. Anyone have the same thing?