Is my depression caused by my thyroid level or am i having mental inllness?

[petit]

It is only lately until I figured out that I started having depression since I was 14. It all started when I had my bf and we merely talked through letters, I was very careful not to let my parents know about I am meeting him and that I am inloved. I felt very sad and cried alot when he decided to cut our relationship. But I was able to cope from it. A year after I was diagnosed to have Discoid eczema and I had to take medicines that has steroids. It gave me more fear o becoming fat and I looked really bad. Even without the doctor's advice I stopped taking my medication because I think that it is not helping me. My skin desease keeps on coming back no matter what I do. I felt shy and intimidated because I was worried people would look down on me if they see my skin. I also had down feeling beore and during menstruation. I used to take pain relievers to control the pMS. Despite these, i remained active in singing and in my studies. I was a very jolly person who never gets tired to laugh. I was very talkative and some days I was hyper. I even worked before going to school. I only get to sleep 2 hours everyday but I didn't mind because I wanted to achieve my goal. On my 3rd year in collage, I started loosing my interest to study, I had memory loss and I wonder why I feel sleepy when the teacher is discussing. I became unfocused and didn't know how to cope it up. I started to question myself where is my confidence, energy and my brain seem to be very poor. I took vitamins to avoid stress but idn't help. I failed some major subjects and that gave me more frustration, all I ever wanted to happen next was to finish my degree and I didn't care anymore about if i get low grades. I became pessimistic and I was very impatient.

At the age of 20 I was diagnose to have hyperthyroidism. But I was not ebing educated much about it. I thought it was just a simple illness like headache or fever that could be treated immediately. I took the medication but i didn't continue it. Until I felt all signs like, tremors, sleeplessness, tiredness, and sweating. It was only when I was 25 when I decided to go to a specialist (Endocrinologist). Which made me relieved enough and the doctor told me about its causes and she gave me Methimazole. I shifty to another doctor as I had to move place. The 2nd doctor gave me tapazole, and the 3rd doctor gave me thyrozol. I am still in medication for 1 yr and 4 months now and I am euthyroid now. However I feel strange, I feel extremely down, I do not find the things that I usually do interesting, I lacked energy, usually i feel like I don't have feelings at all, I don't even feel loved and inloved, i got tired going to work.  That was the reason I let work because I felt tired doing it, I was looking or more excitement but I couldn;t fin it there anymore. I became irritated of noise and music, By the way I was a singer and I performed in many places and I was happy with it. Now, I don;t know what makes me happy. I spent almost my salary shopping as if money runs out, but i idn;t feel good, I tried to change my hair color, went to spa. Until I realized I was just wasting money and I was broke. I didnt know what to do If i lose my job. I found no other resolution to my problems. That even so my friends tell me they can help, i felt i was sitll alone. I became unfriendly and  irritated alot of times. I am not like this before.

I don't like to hear music, I don't like to go out, I don't like to think alot, I am unfocused, I had panic attacks, I believe i have extreme depression and I don't know what to do. I want to be happy again. I have been thinking of having suicide. I feel I am unworthy and hopeless.. Is my depression beacuse of the medicines i am taking or simply because o my thryroid problem?

[EMT9549]

Hi
well I just read your story and for anyone that does not suffer from any thyroid issue, this obviously may sounds like depression or possibly bi polar, multi personality... but luckily for you and I the thyroid controls so much random stuff that it may seem  like your dying some time lol... When I was first diagnosed with Hypothyroidism I had depression for sure! ! ! I was in bed all the time, I didnt want to do anything, I love snowboarding and I didnt even want to do that, I didnt want to eat my favorite foods or anything... This may sound like an understatement, but dont worry about it! !  get your TSH levels checked and if they are normal honestly give it two more weeks and even if your blood levels seem normal it will still take a while for it to adjust. Maybe it could be the meds too you never know...

One thing I noticed too is that you have been taking this medication forawhile... however if it is not the thyroid it could possibly be a mental illness I know for me anxiety was my other diagnosis after having this thyroid **** go on... there are many tests you can take as well to see if you do have a mental illness... If you feel like its a  mental illness I would recommend asking your physician if you can take a MPI ( Multiphasic Personality Inventory)  

tell me how it goes dont worry about anything But first thing is first get that thyroid checked out! ! ! it controls so much ! !

[Leval]

Hi, petit.  Hang on.  The depression is lying to you -- you are very worthy and will beat this thing yet.  

It's definitely, definitely, definitely worth looking at your thyroid function, yes.  It could be the reason for your depression or just one of several things combining to create your condition.

I've just come through the opposite end of thyroid hell -- the hypo end.  I had a full thyroidectomy on 7/18 because of thyroid cancer and within a week was sliding into a weird kind of depression with panic attacks, an inability to focus, weepiness, and suicidal impulses among other miserable symptoms.  All that seems to be under control, for the moment anyway, with the right dose of a short-duration thyroid replacement hormone, Cytomel, but the experience has me thinking over past episodes of clinical depression that I dragged through long before learning I had cancer.

Since the pathologist found all kinds of other junk going wrong with my thyroid, were those other depressions caused at least in part by my thyroid being out of whack?   Can't ever be sure now, but it's certainly possible.

Still having been through those depressions, I can relate to what you're saying.  Things that should be pleasant (like music) become awful, you feel like you'll never get your life together, and you can't be yourself.  It is hell on earth, I know.

BUT hang on.  Just the fact that you can sign on and state so clearly and wisely what's happening to you means you've got the strength and the smarts to pull through this.

I'll be thinking of you.

  

[Applecore]

I probably don't have any real advice but can relate to having depression and anxiety during this time of thyroid out of whack.  I can only tell you that as your thyroid  gets straightened out you will find the depression going and the anxiety also.  Also you might go to a psychiatrist and let him give you something for the depression and if you have anxiety.  The doctor gave me a natural medicine 5HTP which I presently take and it helped.  He also gave me Doxepin low dose and it has helped.  He also gave me risperadol which he called thought glue to help you mind stay together instead of all over the place.  I have only been on these things about 5 months and think I will be stopping some of them soon as I am soooo much better.  I am not one that likes to take any kind of medicine even vitamens but I felt the Lord told me to take these medicines that they would keep me safe and they have.  I still don't like it but they have changed my quality of life and I look forward to getting off of them but for the time being I will take them to keep me stabile.   The doctor said he was offsetting my thyroid symptoms so there you go, depression can be from the thyroid as per my doctor.  He said a lot a doctors don't understand that thyroid causes these symptoms and therefore donot treat properly.  You are having your thyroid treated but may be need medication for the depression.   Best o f luck in your continued effort to get well.  We are all there for you.  lol linda

[Cynnieb4]

Hi yes it is your thyroid out of whack and that depression gets worse once they start to treat it. It takes time they say. But remember they found whats causing it. So it will get fixed in time. I am on xanax to help keep me mellow, I hate taking it, but it really does help. For some just talking helps!