honey ypur not the only one iv been on synthroid witch is just the name brand for wat your on an iv been dealing with it for 7 months i know how disscourage it can be im only 24 an i have chronicill ill 3 yr little boy that is the dose they started me on after mine was removed do you still have yours trust me i know its so hard at tomes iam taken 225 mcg an my liver is still rejectin the med.s an the levels keep climbing but there is a light at the end of the tunnel my grandmother an cousin have already gone thur it so they are really understanding about it but just make sure you have them chek your levels every month till you are at the right dose best wishes
the physical anxiety will pass. That is what it is. Its anxiety being caused by your body trying to adjust to the change. Its going to be very very difficult but you need to keep pushing forward. I realize you think that there will not be an end to it, but you just need to push forward and eventually it will pass. Speaking from experience.
Depression, irritability and lack of motivation are all symptoms of hypo. So are weight gain and high cholesterol (you might not need the statins when your thyroid meds are adjusted)..
Once your meds are adjusted properly for you, it should be easier for you to lose weight, not more difficult. Being hypo lowers your metabolism, making it difficult to impossible to lose weight. I've fought my weight all my life, mostly successfully, but I always said if I wasn't losing, I was gaining. My body seemed to have no interest in maintaining. However, since being on thyroid meds, I have maintained successfully for several years now.
Make sure that your doctor tests FREE T3 and FREE T4 as well as TSH. He must be willing to increase your meds until you feel well and your hypo symptoms are gone, not just until your numbers just barely get back into range.
If you'd like, when you get your lab work done in 6 weeks, post your results and we can help you interpret them.