Recurring Thyroid Cancer

[Angiekr45]

Hi!
I am needing a little advice!!!
My Thyroid was removed many years ago, because of cancer  and I had the radioactive iodine treatment, and the cancer has came back two more times after my thyroidectomy, both times that the cancer came back was around three years after treatment both times  and was given the iodine treatment both times. Almost six years ago the cancer doctor I was using told me I will die from the the recurring thyroid cancer and there is no treatment anywhere that will help me, and that when it hits it will be like I am fine one day and the the next day I am guessing he ment my life will be over that it will hit that fast, and that it will go to my breast and lungs are to my brain one way are the other, so from that day on I stopped all testing and have just been waiting to die!!! I do try not to think about to much but that is very hard to do sometimes!!! I don't go on and on about it to my kids are family, but I am having a problem with my kids when it comes to the way I act, my family doctor has me on a large dosage of my thyroid medican to help fight off the cancer so I do talk a lot and when I can get going when I wake in the mornings, if I even sleep that night I am always way ahead of myself because I always go to extreams on doing things and I loose my train of thought very easy, and I also forget everything so I have told my kids to always keep reminding me of things like my grands baseball games so I want miss them, I know my kids are ashamed of me because they will not invite me to things anymore, and one of my twin girls gose around telling people that I am on drugs!!! (dope) I have ask my kids for many years to please just do a little research on thyroid cancer and the way I act, and maybe they would understand me a little better so I could be part of their lives again, but they want, they say nothing is wrong with me and that I just want everyone to feel sorry for me and to just get off the pitty pot, I am not sure about anything anymore except for how bad I miss my kids and grand kids, and that I love them so much!!! I am very worried that when I do die that if by chance they do find out more about thyroid cancer and the dumb things I did  was not just because I was wanting people to feel sorry for me and that I was not on dope, that they will feel a lot of guilt for not trying to understand why I did do the things I did sooner and wish they would had let me be part of their lives and I don't want my kids to ever feel like that!!! so if anyone can give me any advice what so ever that would help me to help my kids understand why  I do dumb things like talk to much forget everything, and forget what I am talking about sometimes, and even sometimes I will be talking about one thing and then not even  finish talking about it and start talking about another total different thing, and the fact that I cant sleep much!!! I just need someway of helping my kids to understand that I am not doing the things that I do for  people to feel sorry for me!!! I don't want to ever shame anyone at all not even myself!!! I would love any advice anyone could give me!!!
Thank You!!!

[Angiekr45]

Armywife92 and jmamie1

     I thank you with all my heart for the helpful words you both just gave me!!! I do know that God is not done with me yet because the cancer doc. was not telling me I had years left he was letting me know it would be within the year and I did stop all medical things that had to do with my thyroid treatments except my thyroid meds. Thank you both again for your advice and sweet words!!!
Angie

[jmamie1]

hello angie..its real sad that you are going through a trying time in your life..and its more sad that you dont have the support you need..especially in your family..but always remember..the lord jesus christ will never leave you..when you feel down..and you dont know what to do and where to go..pray..it helps alot..and i agree with armywife92..positve thinking helps alot..i know sometimes when these doctors tell you things like they have no heart at all..goes through your body..and you cant help but think about it..but if for just a little moment..to talk to god..and ask him to give you the strength to deal with your illness and family..he will definitely give you strenght..when i found out i have hyper..i worried myself so bad i couldnt sleep for days..and god bought my neice to talk to me..and i became more positive..i mean dont get me wrong i have my moments to where i worry..but listen to music..read the bible..listen to gospel music...do whatever you have to do ..that get you away for those precious moments for yourself..you deserve that..god bless you ..just pray..and read the bible..you will be fine..

[armywife92]

I am sorry you are going through all of this, and I'm probably not much help since I've never had thyroid cancer, I have hashi and graves that's well controlled. Anyway I would say to start LIVING. Mood change starts in your mind and you need a whole new perspective. We all forget things especially us with autoimmune disorders.

It sounds like for the last 6 yrs you've been living with an impending doom mentality. I don't agree with your doc that this will eventually kill you. Sometimes docs say the dumbess heartless things, trust me, I've been a victim of lies like that lol. I say continue treatment, set aside 10 minutes a day where you speak words of positive affirmations. I'm a firm believer in prayer and the power of spoken word. Words CHANGE things, I'm a living witness. It may not change over night, but chnge will come, even if it's just a change in thought patterns. Try to be positive around your kids. They may not want to hear about what your doctors say b/c they don't want to worry.

None of us are promised tommorow, and none of us know when our last breath will be. So live today without worries, or else it will consume your whole life. I think all of us here can admit to worrying in vain. I myself can look back over my life and think about how I let worry ruin days/weeks. The things I worried about never even happened.

I would also look into a radical diet change. Start taking supplements that are proven to halt cancer, slow it down, or prevent it. Natural anti-inflammatories are good b/c cancer starts from inflammation and thrives on it. Start taking selenium, fish oil, and tumeric, in conjunction w/ a healthy diet. I'm not a doc, but I'm also not telling you to take anything that will harm your body, as what I mentioned is NATURAL! Hang in there, and be positive!! Studies have shown that those with a positive attitude or a belief in God have a better outcome combating disease.