Who Else Can Relate?

[dani2776]

When you look at me
Tell me what you see

Can you see my pain
Tears coming like rain

I have tried and tried
And oh I have cried

Who I am now
Is not who I want to be
A wife and a mother
Yes that was me

When will it stop
When will it end
When can I begin to live again

[Smilerdeb]

'Acceptance' of the condition you have is the first big step to wellness.
THEN go hell and leather and make sure you get what you want from your Docs/Endos and dont stop until you find that 'inner peace'.
Dont worry about who you upset along the way in regards to the medical profession as THEY dont live in your body...YOU do.
Dont stop until you feel better.
Research all you can.
Sweep away those 'doom and gloom cobwebs' from your mind and turn all negativity into positivity.
Hard I know but possible.
ACCEPT the bad days along with the good but most of all...BE KIND TO YOURSELF.

There is light at the end of that tunnel...believe me.
But only YOU can find it.

[1annamae]

yes many many meltdowns lately

[SuzCat]

Oh my! These are great! I'm letting myself take off the Mummy Mask now my kids are in bed and it's comforting in a misery-loves-company way to read your poems. Thanks.

[Jennifer1987]

Well done, thats unreal! think many people can relate to them!!! Thanks dani for startin the post!

[TamraW]

Very nice, Jennifer. I can relate. One more depressing one from me. Remember, I wrote these when I thought I was dying, when my vitamins were low, and before I started Synthroid.

Maybe I'll try to write a funny one later. Comedy is how I cope with adversity.



Burned up on sunshine

Thought these bones would heal
With just a little time
I’m not healin’
No, I’m reelin’
Been burned up on sunshine

Now my skin does peel
Burns me to the rind
Can’t stop cryin’
Feels like dyin’
This burned up on sunshine

Can’t I take a pill?
Ease my troubled mind?
Soul is achin’
Body’s breakin’
Been burned up on sunshine

:) Tamra

[Jennifer1987]

So decided to comw up with my own ammmm "poem" lol...
Jus really describes how my last year has been..

Ok so here it goes:

A year ago things were great,
I had my health, my life and my faith,

I had my dreams, My plans and my expectations,
I had no time for complications,
I had good ideas and big hopes,
But now its hard to even cope.

My life has changed for the worst,
I feel like my future has been crushed,
My body aches, my hands shake,
Anxiety is so high, Im always awake.

I'm not suicidal, but I want to die,
My life at this moment is such a lie,
When I smile, its not real, none of it counts,
The only thing I want now is to heal.

My thyroid is broken, it has spoken,
This is me now, and I HATE IT!

[Jennifer1987]

Ya I was kinda the same, told all that was wromg was depression... I was so morbid at the start to, and I think I still am..... Prob depressed over it all! When I was told I had hashimotos I dont really know if I was relieved or not.. It took about 8 months of feeling like death to finally know!

But nothing has changed, still as morbid as ever lol.. Its great to know why your sick, but not so great when you know your stuck with it for life!

[TamraW]

BTW- That poem was written BEFORE the diagnosis of Hashi, when the docs said my thyroid was fine because my PTH was a 2.74. I wrote that poem when I thought I was dying, and no doctor could diagnose my illness.

Now you can see why it was so morbid.

Having the Hashi diagnosis has lifted my spirits, because at least I know WHY.  

Take care...
:) Tamra

[dani2776]

May I ask how long it took for you to see the optimism with your thyroid battle?

[ChitChatNine]

Here's mine

Never lose site of hope; without hope there's no chance for optimism

[Jennifer1987]

That was great! At this stage I dont have the brain qower to write anything like that lol!

Well done ladies!

[dani2776]

Very powerful!  I had much more to say however I was afraid people would think I was suicidal ;-)

Danielle

[TamraW]

Very nice, Dani. Here's mine:

Sickness is a snake
Coiling ‘round my brain
Igniting fires
Tripping wires
Felling me insane

Sickness is a mold
Rotting out my soul
Lifeless life
Mundane strife
Half of me is whole

Sickness is a poison
Infectious evil rot
Dulling pains
Bruising veins
Life is what is not

Sickness is a cure
For apathy and greed
Heartless hearts
Smartless smarts
Now I feel you bleed


:) Tamra

[hope4thegoodstuff]

That's awesome.

I sort of teeter on that edge...I mostly ignore the bad, but there are days when everything knocks at my mental door a little harder.   I am not where I want to be, but too overwhelmed to know where to start to fix it.