test levels

[mommyof2909]

Hi I am completely new to all of this I was told that I have graves but I want to know more.  I do have a goiter he said was1.5.  I will not do the RAI because I am scared that I will have cancer down the road.  If someone told me that they had it(RAI) 20 years ago with a family history with cancer and they are fine then I might.  I was told Jan 29th that I have Graves this is my test results
TSH  0.009  in jan 29th  
TSH 0.014  feb 9

tested jan 29
T3 total is 503.2 ng/dl
T3 free 20.00 pg/ml
t4 15.3ug/ml
T4 free 3.93ng/dl
pth intact is 15.3 normal

thyroglobulin ab  19   <115 iu/ml is normal
thyroid peroxidase ab  268    <35 iu/ml  mine is high
but on the lab results it stats the magnitude of the antibody titer does not correlate with the clinical activity of the disease. what does this mean?  
Before taking medication I did have a racing heart sometimes in the high 90 sometimes it would get up to120 (i drank coffee and smoked I have quit both since the 29)   I had tremors mild.  I could but barely pick up my 4 year old that wiegh 37 lb. I had mood swings that were normal around my period sometimes I wouldn't even have mood swings.  I do have pains in my legs on my shins and knee joints and upper thigh area. more so now since taking my medication.  I am on propranolol 30mg aday and Methinazole(sp)  30 mg a day. ARE THESE HIGH DOSES?
Now taking the med my heart heart is all over the place lowest was 77 and high was 107 because I was crying with I do alot of these days.  IS IT OKAY FOR THE HEART TO DO THAT?  IS IT NORMAL THAT MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL OER THE PLACE?  IS IT GOOD THAT ALL THIS IS HAPPENING SO FAST?


Also are there things that I shouldn't eat?  Drink?  things that will help be get back to normal?  
I should be asking my doctor but I won't be seeing him until march.  I will be getting a second opinion also.

Has anyone heard anything about the surgery for sub or partial removal of the thyroid?  
Sorry this is alot of questions but being informed at this point in my life is much needed.  I have 2 children at home and would love to watch them grow up!  Another thing lately is thought of me dying.  
Thank you for whoever answers this!

[mommyof2909]

I know I am writing all my feeling in a notebook.  I talk to my husband about the way I am feeling .  Which are the emotions all over the place.  I hope the best for you!  

[ann4512]

i was were you are 16 months ago,so i feel for you .i cryed a river planed my funeral and lot's more,all the stuff that is going on in your head is normal but you will get better as time goe's on,you will get a few day's of feeling back to normal than a few day's off day's, it is a see saw for the first while till med's kick in,a few bump's in the road ahead but you will come out the other side,the doze of med's are right for you for the first 6 to 7 week's but than get blood's checked you don't want to go to hypo on them i did but it was fine they just cut the doze to 10 mg a day i'am now on 5mg a day  feeling great still have a few up and down's but nothing like befor,so their is light at the end of tunnel.i still have a lot to learn about grave's but this site is great all willing to help ,hope this makes you feel a bit better i no it's had especially when you have children i have 3 wonderful kid's 11,10, and a princess aged 2 she was only ten month's when i got this so hard ,xxxxxxxx but you will get better  remmber you've got graves it has'int got you that's the motto around here take care annmarie