I am a 24 year old male.
The past week I have been feeling so bad it's not even funny! I am normally an out-going active guy who likes to work and be with friends. But all that has changed.
Here lately ( 6 days or more ) , it;'s like when I try to go to bed, i can feel my body sink and pretty much just sleep but my mind, ( feels like it's in the back ) is just so active and it feels like it can't shut itself down long enough for a good nights sleep. I have done so many numerous researches and everything points to Sleep Paralyzation, but I don't believe like it is.
It feels like I am not getting enough oxygen and altho all my Blood Oxygen levels come back fine, it doesn't feel like it. When I lay down to try and sleep, it feels like I have to force myself to breathe. I know I am breathing, because If not I wouldn't be typing this. But, when i CAN yawn, it is like it does me no good, i dont feel release from it. The back of my head (brain) just feels so numb but I can feel touch on the scalp, its in the same area where it feels like my brain is most active.
Let me back up a little.
It all started ( before this ) with abdominal pain, ( read my other posts ), and feeling like I was constipated. I had been to the ER on numerous occasions only to be told that all CT scans had come back clean ( Negative, liver, spleen, kidneys, appendix, etc. ) No abnormal enlargements or calcifications. On the first time I went, they did an xray of the abdomen and it came back good and reports even said lower lungs clear.
Days after that, they said it could be prostate infection and gave me cipro, i didn't like the adverse effects so I stopped.
Right now my stomach feels like its numn but I can feel the burning sensation when I know I need to have a movement and when I do it's either in diahrrhea ( which burns the anus ) with blood or without.
Flash forward to now, like i said above, it feels like when I lay down my whole body is shaking, trembling, like I have to force myself to breathe. and when I am laying here trying to relax myself i do breathing excecises I read about to breathe through the tummy not chest and when I do I tremble even more, it feels like my chest is hot, my stomach trembles ( area of diaphragm ) My heart races like its about to jump out and leave me, then when i calm myself down, I feel myself stop shaking as bad but again it feels like I can't breathe right. that my heart has stopped at times but i know it hasn't or again, i wouldn't be here. Feels like constant heart burn.
I have lost so much weight over the past days without activity and all the doctors want to do is send me home. I do not have any medical insurance or any insurance in general and I do not have a GP. Too much money that I do not have. I have an appt for a GI visit on tuesday but I don't know how I am suppose to pay for it ( 135 buckaroos )
Right now my eyes feel heavy, when I close them i feel my body sink, and when I think im about to doze off, my mind is racing. I layed down at (1:25 am) after taking Melatonin ( Natural Sleep aid ) to see if it will help me. I must have done something cause when I looked up at the clock ( after what i think was a sleep start, kick ) it was 3:45. But all i remember is really vivid vision of my nephew ( whom i havent seen in years ), being hungry and i am fixing him something to eat in the bedroom no doubt, and other different voices or sounds that I do not recognize. and when I finally open my eyes its like my body feels even more depleted of rest, my mind is still on full speed and i go about the day trembling.
I had went back to the er 3 days ago and the dr looked at me and told me I was clearly hyperventilating. He gave me a shot of Ativan 2mg and sent me home with a prescription of .25mg Xanax. I remember them giving the shot, and waking up at home, but nothing in between. I just remember still feeling like I haven't rested in weeks even after that shot. I took 2 xanax ( as prescribed 1tab x2 daily) and i could feel myself wanting to shut down, but again my mind doesn't and i jump start awake feeling cold, clammy and blagh.
I tried going back to work and barely made it through. Took me back off work til this monday which I have to make a decision about whether i want work leave ( up to 12 weeks , no pay ) or not. I need to find relief soon before I lose my job.
What can this be. Why can I not get rest or ease of mind, i can live with the stomach and bowel issues as long as I can get some goooood sleep, i mean the kind where I dont remember whats going on around me until i wak eup the next morning.
Im tired of the muscle jerks, twitches, crawly skin, etcs. Always being hungry ( i guess from being over active because of no sleep ) yet losing unintentinal weight. (oh and Thyroid came back good too ).
I just want my normal life back like it was 2 weeks ago.
I love my life, im not anyway suicidal nor am I haveing those thoughts.
I just can't focus, think straight, etc. I feel mentally numb, ( havent been able to cry) normally i can watch a sappy show and cry. I listened to music play at moms funeral and i cried a little. but not much and still no relief.
I am so sorry this is so long but I just needed to get it out there. Peace and love guys.
Rick
24/Kentucky