Why does it feel like someone else is controlling my body?

[3xGs]

Since I was in my early teens (I'm now 21) I have had times where I couldn't remember some conversations I had had, even if I was in the middle of one. I don't remember some of the things that I have done and remember little of my teens. At times I feel like I am in a dream, even when I know I'm awake, I feel like I can't control what I'm doing and my body is just moving on it's own, like it was on autopilot. I can text someone and even though I know that I am writing it feels like I'm not the one writing and I'll write things that I don't want to be written with no way to stop it, then have only vague memories of it afterwards. Sometimes I can have full conversations and the next day not even know that they existed. Sometimes when I'm like this I want to hurt people or cause them pain and I have had people tell me that I'm acting very differently to how I normally am.

[RockRose]

This is a concern,  3XGS.  You describe what you're experiencing very well,  and in a detailed way.  Have you ever seen a psychiatrist or been on antipsychotic meds?  Best wishes.

[3xGs]

Hi RockRose, when I was 13 I was diagnosed with clinical depression and borderline schitzotypal personality disorder, but that wouldn't explain what is happening. I never went to see anybody about what I was describing and never told anybody other than a few close friends because my family would basically disown me for it.