black out lost vision

[2om2om]

I like my life, but some days i just freak out there is to much going on. I had to start making list of the goals and arruns i wanted to do for the day just so i could remeber them, I am a pretty relaxed person outside, but inside it is like there are 400 things to do at once, and i cant do anything with out thinking about it or counting it a million times. when i do my bills for the week i have to go over and over with it no only in my head but on paper, i Know what i am gonna pay but i always have to be sure. I tell myself to do somthing but i am so overwelmed that i can't complete the task. For example if I i want to go to the library,pick up some hand towels, then head to get my mail,and stop for gas, it takes so much i feel so drained cuz while i am doing these task i cant think of anything but the task, and if i get side tracked i have to head home, i have to get out i just cant do it then i cant talk myself into trying to finish my arruns cuz i know what a task it will be, And the balck outs i have them all the time, there are days i cant remember, hours minute, i know this sounds funny but it's not, some days i get home pull up in my car and have no idea whow i got there, Or I am at work and i am doing my work then the phone will ring i will look up and hours have passed. I mean i can function but it scares me what am i doing how amd i living, why can't i remember. Why do i keep forgeting, then i try to remember but it makes me more stressed, trying to think back, it tires me out alot, some days i will get home and be exsausted But the black outs r really crazy i forget whole days, most of the time i am not sure i remember them at all in the first place. I could get in a car accident and forget about it till i c one on the news, and say to my family oh by the way a car hit me today... like if it didnt happen to me, cuz i cant remember any of it , then it hits me like...boom and all of it comes flooding back... Please help me

[PlateletGal]

It could be stress that is responsible for all of your symptoms, or it could be a more serious condition. In my opinion,you should get a referral (if you need one) and see a neurologist ASAP... just to rule out other possibilities.

[singforjoy]

I don't know about your past history so I am not accusing you of anything....and I'm certainly no expert, but the only time I've heard of blackouts,  etc..., as you've expressed, is when someone I was close to was an alcoholic/drug addict. He is in recovery now, but is still reaping the consequences from years of life threatening choices.  If this is not your situation,  then you may want to let doctors dig deeper into the problem....it could be a number of things most of us on the internet wouldn't even think of. So sorry...it sounds like a very tough and scary thing to deal with.

[2om2om]

i didn't just mean driving home from work, i ment going anywhere, it dosent where i go, i just forget and end up at the right place. I forget conversations. I will be talking and look to the rigth look back and i couldnt tell u what i had been talking about, or what hadwe happened recently. I someitmes remeber conversations hours or days after they happen. Or remember my conversation in the middle of another one. I just cant focus on anything, i can read sometimes "a book" get thruogh a whole chapter and know what happened but not remember reading it. Or read a whole chapter and cant remember any of it, I remember things that didnt happen. Parts of a movie or song that dont exsist. Or a part of my childhood long forgotten remembered