ok i get really dizzy and lightheaded, like i cant even move. i will feel like fainting but i wont. ill throw up randomly. then at times ill feel really nauseated but i wont throw up. and when i do feel like that, ill still eat. i dont know why i just do. i wont even be hungry. then ill be really bloated and full cause of it. ill be really cold and have chills then the next minute ill be extremely hot. at times, usually during the day ill be fatigue but when i try to sleep i absolutely cant. at night, ill close my eyes to try and sleep but my head just keeps me awake. its impossible to sleep. i cry alot at night. its like theres so many things going on in my head. i cant think or concentrate at all. its like something is blocking my ability to do that. ive had a panic attack or something and it scared the hell outta me. i didnt know what to do. i just wanted to yell for my mom but it was in the middle of the night so i just calmed myself down. i do have diarrhea. and of course it usually happens when im out somewhere. so its miserable cause ill just want to drop what im doing and run home to use the bathroom comfortably in my house. my vision gets really blurry. im scared for my sight in the future. also, theres this pulse (mostly in my head) that i feel if someone looks at me they can see it. it goes through my whole body and its a scary feeling. i shake alot. mostly my hands. im only 17 and i feel like an old person. no offense.
Throughout this "episode" i feel really scared for my life. maybe a little depressed.i just dont want to live through this. i feel like im trippin out. and if i passout. i wont wake up.
This feeling is mostly in my head. i just want to hold my head with both hands and sit there till it goes away. its not a headache feeling. its just...off. nights are the worst! i dont want to be alive at those points. i miss school alot cause ill finally get to sleep around the time i need to wake up and at work im just not "there". to other people im sure they think im in a bad mood.or sick but im really not. i just dont feel normal. i dont want to say im sick cause i dont feel like that but i dont know what it is. this all happens before and/or during and/or after my period. theyve also gotten alot shorter. like it last only two days now.
These episodes started in january and it happens every month. usually arould the same time. it lasts around a couple of days to a week and a half or so and these symptoms happen on and off. ive had three episodes.
I have asthma and bad rheumatoid arthritis. i dont know if that has anything to do with it but just thought id mention it.
I dont know whats wrong with me. dont know how to treat it. but i really want to find out. soon.