I strongly recomend methedone treatment I am on it and I am byfar not high, I am however clean and have been for a year! It also has an opiate blocker, so u can't get high while ur on it! They do urinalisis to make sure u r clean from other drugs while u r on it though! I to couldn't tell my family , but this has helped me so far: now you do need to be weened off of it but they do it for u when ur ready! I was able to make a positive change in mylife with out stopping my everyday routine! They only start you at 30mg leagally but they take you up every day untill you are comfortable! I got high off of it for the first week after that I felt normal again and it feels great!!! You can look for a center near you online I don't know where u live , but I go to Maryland General , Downtown off of madison ave that is a wonderful program! They also have a very good payment plan if u dont have insurance! I hope this helps you at all!!!!!!!! Good luck , and no matter what it takes do it because you deserve to be happy again!
Congratulations on making a change.
I would point you to the addition and abuse forum here on medhelp. There is likely to be someone in the community that can provide you with the assistance that you need.
Good luck.