Hello, I am 21 years old, and I have growth hormone deficiency. I look like I am about 16, which isn't a surprise because my bone age is 15 and 1/2. I started growth hormone at age 14, so it's been about 7 years. I use to be about 4'6, now I am 5'7 and still growning at a rate of approximately 3 quaters of an inch - an inch every three months. Obviously, I am going though a growth spurt at the moment, I have never grown that fast before (besides the first few months when I began taking it). Now to the bad part and following, my question...
My genitals are not that of a normal 16 year old. I have major delayed puberty (obviously because of my GHD). My penis has not grown any, ever, not that i've noticed anyway. My penis is about 4 inches erect. Actually, it's a little less than 4 inches, more than 3 quaters, but not the full inch. For arguments sake, lets say it's 4 inches. I'm pretty sure my testicles have grown some, but not like a full adult yet. I can ejaculate, but it isn't much, and it's clear. So it hasn't matured to being a full white color, and I don't ejaculate a lot of it like a matured man. I have full pubic hair, but it's not on my theighs yet, but it's quite thick. I guess stage four of pubic hair? The stage before it goes on to my thieghs. I have some under arm hair, it has gotten thicker recently, but still not as thick as a full grown man.
I have no chest hair(Well lil tiny hairs, but nothing thick that you can see it easily.). I have a lil thin mustache that has gotten a LITTLE bit thick recently, and I have lil check hairs also, but it isn't thick. You have to really look at my face to notice it. My voice still sounds like a girl, although I am told it changed a TINY bit, still sounds like a girl though. I have small girly hands,(which is weird, that's suppose to be the first thing that grows) but average size feet? I'm a size eleven in America.
My Endocrinologist is confident that I will finish puberty normall, and everything will be ok, but I keep doubting it. She always says that my body is really, really slow. She says that I can take steriods to speed it up and finish puberty, but it would limit my growth(being taller). So I decided to keep taking GH to grow taller, I really want to be 5'9. However, I am concerned about my penis size, and fertility, and to an extent my girly(but I can get surgery to make me sound like a man, so not too worried) voice.
From what I said, am I growing properly as if I were a 16yo boy? Why hasn't my penis grown significantly, if any;I really can't tell, I was so ashamed of myself before that I never looked at it, it just made me even more deppressed. Basically, am I still on track or should I start freaking out? I told you how my sperm development was, is that normal for my point in development? I really want to have kids...People that are infertile, do they still ejaculate Sperm/fluid? If so, what makes them infertile? Now I doubt that I am fertile...Please help me.