I went to a Urologist for ED issues as well as some dipping sexual Drive. He first took a look at me and ruled out any obvious physical issues. Then he sent me for a ultrasound on my testicles and some blood test. Basically checking my testosterone and PSA test.
My PSA prostrate test was fine, but he said my Testosterone test came back on the low side of normal, right on the border of Low. He told me I might benefit from Testosterone therapy but it may not help, as though I was on the lower side of normal, I could still have enough for my body and it might not help. He told me If I wanted to try, I would have to have my prostrate checked periodically.
I wanted to at least try for a month. So he prescribe me the lowest dose of the gel which I rub on my shoulders each morning. The good news is the change was dramatic, My sex drive quadrupled after about a week and the ED went away.
But more importantly, It made a huge change to my life, suddenly I felt good, had plenty of energy, my depression I had been in for years lifted. I could think better, I was confident, it changed almost all aspects of my life making it better. Actually it is the best I have felt ever, I had sex issues with ed even in my 20's. My chest pains for some reason went away too oddly, and I had been getting some bad ones, though doc said my stress test was normal.
After a month, I was rechecked, My Testosterone was still low normal but higher. Doctor said he wanted to leave it at the low dose since all the symptoms went away. Set up an appointment for six months for a check.
Okay now my fear and question, I have just recently learned that the gel that I am using is actually the same kind of steroid weight lifters abuse and there is a chance I could end up with the testicles of a squirrel. I didn't realize I was taking roids.
I have great fear of this, I am not doing this because I want to bulk up, but because of the benefits I mentioned above. I know you can't tell me what the future will bring, but is it a forgone conclusion that if I have this treatment I will loose the shape and size of my testicles? How small can they get, is it really that horrible?
I am torn, never had I had something that helped me so much, and if I stop it will suck the wind right out of me. I fear to continue and I am terrified to stop now that I know how good I can actually feel.
Does this happen to all men who need therapy? or is it only half of them, If its only half maybe I can luck out.
I have looked everywhere and I can't seem to find what the odds of it happening, only all this information about these people who abuse roids and shrink themselves.
I am 40 years old, non smoker or drinker, no medical conditions other than depression (well thats gone now) and overweight. (thats going away now too)