Hello, im sixteen years old female, and 1m 65 cm tall. I just weighed myself and im 44.4 KG. i Know this isnt very much. I'm worried that i may be becoming anorexic, as in the past nine months or so i have been losing weight gradually, but constantly. I havent had my periods for nine months.
Nine months ago i got stitches in my lip and couldnt eat properly for a while, then i got braces. my eating patterns never stabilised and i started finding i got great pains in my abdomen anytime i ate anything big, ate anything quickly, or just ATE it general. so i have basically reached a point where i eat to keep myself standing up. A basic daily diet for me is cereal for breakfast, a nutella tub (its 20g) for lunch and an apple for dinner. eating any more then this starts the pains, and i have 2 curl up in a ball to stop the feeling ill gush out from both ends (if you know what i mean) - often, it usually does (but rarely vomiting. mostly the other end...) So i chose not eating anything large, and taking 30-60 minutes to eat anything. Id rather starve then have the uncomfortable pains.
ANYWAY, my friends and family have been commenting alot on my weight. I saw my reflection in a mirror at a party last night and saw a gaunt, scarwny looking girl. I was embarrassed to be seen in public. when i frst starting losing weight i thought it was the coolest thing ever, i felt sexy and like a model. but it has spiralled out of control. I'm scared of putting on any weight, but im just as scared of losing anymore. I pretend to eat normal and not get pains so my mum doesnt worry or waste her time taking me to doctors, etc. she has enough on her plate. i want it clear that i DONT think im fat!!!!
I think i need help, But i dont know what to do. Im afraid ill wake up one day and just be a skeleton. I just want to be healthy looking again but i dont know how. Im scared.