Depression

[livemylife]

Im 15 and very depressed and heard that being depressed can cause a heart disease can that really happen to me at my age. Well ive been depressed since i was like 7. At first i was depressed my father wasnt around and my sister father was and i tryed to kill myself by putting a bag over my head. Now when i think about that i think i was so dumb for doing that and at that age i really didnt know what i was doing. Then getting older i got BAD acne and i went to a school and got talked about EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!!!!!!! i hated myself because of that i thought i was really ugly and wanted to kill myself because of that. I tryed everything to try to fix it and nothing worked. I told my mom about me wanting to kill my self and she brong me to consueling. The first day i went there i just cryed all day until it was time to go then i got used to going everyday and spoke out. Now thinking about that i dont think that helped at all it wasnt like my conueler made my acne go away.Then getting to high school i notice that one of my labias is longer then the other yea i read all the other topics about people having that too. And having that is rudeing  my life i ignore boys because of that i dont love my self because of that I stay in the house all day I do talk to boys on the phone but dont like hang out with them i love boys and i really want a boyfriend but boys my age dont know about that im really missing out on being a teenager i have some friends but not a good friend i could talk to about that problem .Every day i cry at least 3 times a day and ask god why me i write poems to express my feelings and  i think about my future and what will happen if i still have that when i get older. Growing up i see my self being lonely not having kids adopting kids and jus being single and depressed untill i get old and die. Talking to someone wont help haveing surgery will help and it will make me love my self and make me have the future that i dream off...  

[leepafc2007]

Hi there dont kill yourself its not worth it your parents will miss you if you went! I tryed to kill me self a few times but never worked and I got sectioned for it! Oh if your considering doing this talk to some now before its 2 late or take yourself to the emergency department at your local hospital explain things to your parents if not the just walk out and go to the hospital straight away and tell them how your feeling please dont do it your young its nots worth it! i have tryed it so many times i dont bother doing it no more! so please dont.

[livemylife]

And do i have a disorder like bipolar or major depression or something because sometimes im in a happy mood then i want to be to myself and dont want be bother with anyone else and just in a crying mood and i could never sleep on the weekend i stay up till 5 and try to make myself goto sleep on school days