masturbation and clitoral fissure...?

[rock_hard_tastyabs]

I have been masturbating since I was a little girl. Once, I did to it with long nails, longer than usual.  I didn't feel any pain but I cut/ripped the end of my clitoral hood.  I thought nothing of it and continued doing it time after time.  The rip got deeper and deeper along the hood but I thought that if I was careful, it wouldn't rip more.  Now, my clitoral hood is split down the middle. I just want to know, is there a way that I can fix this "damage" other than stitches?  Am I never going to have a clitoris that is whole again?  Yes, I know i shouldn't touch it again but the fact is i'm at the point where it's even uncomfortable for me to masturbate.  it's a lack of control on my part, i know.  but if you have anything useful to tell me, that would be greatly appreciated.  The worst part about it is that since I had this ..(i would call it an injury or wound but it doesn't "hurt") every time I have sex and my partner wants to stimulate my genitals say with his tongue or his hands, i have to push him away because when they do that, it kind of hurts, and i don't ever want to have to explain that to any guy, it just doesn't feel right.  so if you could give me a pointer or two, that would be great.  One last question... I've tried putting polysporin on it overnight, but it doesn't seem to be doing any good, should i follow a path like that of some sort?  Is there an ointment out there anywhere that can heal me?

[sparkeler]

OUCH!

[lovethebops]

wow, i have never heard of that before, Wasn't it painful when you were cutting it with your nails??..Ouch! I'm not sure what you could put on it, but I would think laying off any simulation (your own or partner/s) would be a start to letting that sensitive area heal...I do think that once you leave it alone for a while that it   would start to get better, and fortunately, "down there'' heals up quickly if not messed  around with. And I would be careful what kind of creams and things you put "down there'', most things things are not meant for that very sensitive skin area, could burn or make it worse.

[pertykitty]

im not a dr but id say if it has healed already it would take surg to fix it. its sensitive because the clitoris is exposed, sometimes if it is touched directly it can cause discomfort. i know if my dh touched it in just a certain way its uncomfortable. hows that for tmi LOL

[pertykitty]

i just noticed you put this under sexual violence, interesting choice

[PGB]

Don't touch!  

[monkeyflower]

I kinda doubt that you actually tore anything; your genitals do change size and shape as you go through puberty, so I have a feeling that may be what you're noticing. I'm picking up an undercurrent of shame and anxiety about sexuality (masturbation in particular, but also partner sex) and your genitals, which may be the real source of your discomfort. You need to see a gyn to have him/her look at it, reassure you that it's normal (if it is), or to resolve whatever issue you may be experiencing (there are some skin problems that could result in thin/easily torn skin, etc.).

[vsentz]

what about leaving that area alone for a while????

Your genitals are one of the most delicate parts in your body, if you keep 'scratching' yourself over and over, the only thing you will get is a nice infection and a non-healing wound.

You like to masturbate? grab a vibrator! they don't have pointy edges or anything that could harm you......and for crying out loud! file those nails!!!

[rock_hard_tastyabs]

Thank you all so much for responding to my comment.  This problem started when I was about 12 years old and yes, I was young and naive, I didn't know better.  I think I'll be vacating that area now, I guess it's shown a lack of self control for me not being able to leave it alone.  It's very interesting, i had a dream where I bought a vibrator and was dazzled by its "capabilities" maybe that's a sign to move on to a different version of self pleasure.  

Again, thank you all so much and yes, I know it's unusual, but it scared me.

and none of us want to feel that place is in any danger.

cheers.
rock_hard_tastyabs

[vsentz]

*spits coffee all over computer*


you dreamt of getting a vibrator..........


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[Annalee2009]

I have the exact same problem sweet, I came across your post because I am looking for information so I feel more comfortable when I go to see my Doctor and possibly a Gynecologist (they are specialist Doctors in Womens sexual organs).
My clitoris hood appeared to split gradually each time I masterbated and I have not been able to be touched on my clitoris since the age of about 14 and I'm now 37, I have a lovely boyfriend who is very caring and is careful not to touch the inside of the clitoris, however, if any siliva or semen comes into contact with it, it stings very badly. Sometimes, even having sex, the weight of his body can cause pain on my clitoris. I can see from searching on Wiki, pictures and descriptions of what a vulva etc looks like, but each one of us is different, thats why I think it's important to see a Doctor, and not to be embarrased, masterbation (masturbation) is perfectly fine and everybody is able to do it, anybody who doesn't is missing out and I have got to the point where the pain is so bad that I can't masterbate comfortably anymore, and I want to! Thus I am going to see my Doctor! I've left it way too long, over 25 years of discomfort, pain and stinging but I was always too embarrassed to talk about it before now.