ahem.. i just joined!!

so this is what we all do is it sit at our desks & hope someone out there is going to jump up & say "its all right, we all go though ruff patches. it will get better, it just takes time".  "how long?" we ask? its been 3years & i still feel like an insignificant bug pinned under a rock the size of bus?... squished! >(   ...---...