Hello All - 4.5 Months Clean off ALL BENZOS!!!

Hello Fellow Benzo Recovering Addicts

Today I have 131 Days clean after being a prisoner to Benzo's for over 25 years.... I have taken pretty much all the Benzos - Xanax, Valium, Ativan, Klonopin.... They all are miserable and Hell to get off of.... Looking for others getting clean off of these crazy pills...

[Lapa]

Hi:
Congratulations of being off benzo's for 131 days after taking them for 25 years! How are you feeling?  What was your withdrawal like?

I am withdrawing from 5 years of being on various benzo's. Am withdrawing and having emotional/mental symptoms such as fear and doom of the future, boredon because I lost friends and my previous full life, weight gain, low self esteem and lack of confidence, confusion driving places, especially with directions, depression, memory loss ( have not felt joy or well being in 5 years). I was taking xanax for sleep and anxiety 5 years ago and had a breakdown while on xanax ( which I think the xanax helped produce)_ and then went cold turkey off xanax and started hearing voices and had extreme anxiety and insomnia for months. My system is very sensitive and I had not idea xanax could do all that. I am wondering what was benzo produced and what was me?

Any thoughts on the emotional or mental part of the benzo withdrawal? Some days I take a drink of hard liquor because I can't stand it any loner.

Appreciate your thoughts and comments.

Lapa