tears

I'm sick of crying for no reason,or is there a reason,counselling is getting harder why put myself through it,I know if I don't get my life sorted I would drink and do codeine again,I have to keep going with the counselling no matter how hard it gets or how much I hurt.The pain is sometimes unbearable mental anguish I call it.I know I have to get through this but it could take years-It's only been 5 months and we haven't really scratched the surface of my inner most thoughts and feelings that run my life.I knew it would be hard but how much can my brain take.I'm feeling bombarded with everything all at once.