Angel, thank you for the kind and encouraging words, and your understanding. I am sorry to hear about your struggles, and its horribly unfortunate that we all have to go through them. I guess the old addage "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" carries a lot of truth. I do believe that we all have to find our bottom before we can reemerge a better person, but its a hell of a way to go about things...LOL.
Suicide....although I've never put myself down that path, I can see how one can be lead there. There have been a few times that I wouldn't have pulled out of the way of a speeding freight train if it was headed in my direction. It's a horrible feeling...helpless, hopeless, worthless...all of that and then some. Through the years I've lost a few friends to suicide and had no idea that they were in that deep. I guess I hid some of my darker days pretty well and would imagine that even those closest to me didnt fully grasp where I was on those dark days. It's kind of scary to think that my friends, people that I was so close too had those feeling and I was close myself. I do have a lot to live for and I realize that, and am thankful for the opportunity to address my problems, educate myself and make myself a better person.
Religion: I've never been too into organized religion and have numerouse reasons for that. I think it's a joke that a mass murderer can kill 10-20 people, go to prision, find Jesus and then be absolved of his sins...whereas a real nice person who is good to others and a genuine kind soul cannot make it to heaven because he hasnt accepted Jesus. Just too many scare tactics in organized religion, and not to mention how commercialized its become. Some of the worlds religious institutions are the most financially secure organizations/corporations in the world and I think theres something wrong with that.
Spirituality: I believe in something, but not sure what that is. I tend to take a look at the science aspect of creation. I believe that there's just too much science involved to discredit it. I think that if the right set of circumstances fall into place, certain things will happen. I think its hard for the mind to grasp such a simple concept and rush to think that there is far more things involved than there really is. It's human nature to make things bigger than they really are and a simplistic view of how it all began doesnt fit into hope for a greater future.
I believe in a previous post that you said you were of Native American decent??? I think I am in line with Native American beliefs...I believe in something but worship mother earth and all it has to offer...the mountains, the deserts, the rivers, the lakes, the fish, the wildlife, other humans..... To me, its a beautiful thought, and I hope to become more in touch with my spirituality.
Thank you for your time, your insight, and your friendly ear. I appreciate it all.
No problem. I wish you the best with your journey and your search for spirituality. I understand about negative feelings....there are so many bad things that go on in this world...on personal levels and with humanity in general. It's hard to understand why these things have to happen. I will keep you in my thoughts and your search for God and what He means to you. I do hope that you will look into it further when you are ready. It's great to be able to explore all sides and search your heart to discover the truth.
I peronally believe in God although I don't believe in organized religion. I guess that's why I consider myself more spiritual. When I was at my spiritual best and in tune with myself I felt so good but then there was a time when I was trying to go to college...my second go at it...but even with grants I could not afford it and I had no one to help. Things did not go the way I wanted and I lost all hope, abandoned my spirituality, felt like know one understood me or cared and I wa suicidal. I took a bunch of vicodin hoping to die. Once those negative thoughts and energies get going they just pull you down further and further. It's a point that I wish no one else would ever have to go through....but here I am! I made it through. I thought my life was over and gone. That was about 8 or 9 years ago. I never imagined that I would be where I am today. No life isn't easy. I don't think it ever will be. One problem replaces another. I learned it's how you deal with the problem that gets you thru. Sometimes we really do have to hit bottom to find our way back. That's what happened to me. Right now I am facing a possible miscarriage. I have two beautiful kids already but I love this little one too. It's been hard to deal with but I have chosen to be thankful for the time I've gotten to be this little one's mommy and if it's meant to be I will be his mommy for a very long time...but if not then I am grateful for the few weeks that I had.
Sorry to go on. I just want you to have hope and see that as you work thru things to try to focus on whatever positive you can find...give your energy to the positive and you will feel a difference. Keep strong and know that there is still a lot of good out there...try to choose to see as much good as you can, even if it's just to say how beautiful the sky is today, etc. I'm excited for you because I think you are going to be on a great spiritual journey one day. Many blessings and healing to you!
Hi Angel, I got your friend request but I have to not accept it at this time. I am going through a tuff time trying to repair a marriage after some infidelity, and I dont think this would be appropriate. But I am way more than happy to talk on this forum!!!
I appreciate your stand on this, big time. I used to have so many deja-vu moments in my youth that it was ridiculous! School tests, family trips, crap in our neighborhood. But I have to tell you, that old lady Bernice that I mentioned.....just a too weird connection there! I am beginning to look into my spirituality....havent actually started yet, but need to get over my current thoughts. They are kind of negative concerning the human species. I dont think I believe in God....dont even know what God is. I believe something happened, that may be him.... I dont know but am willing to look into it further.
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I've never actually had anyone appear to me when they passed but my Uncle did. I believe it was his father-in-law and my unlce woke up one night to see his FIL standing at the foot of his bed. He was in white and just said a few words...everyhting is great here and goodbye. My unlce then knew that his FIL had died but it brought a great amount of comfort.
I had an incident when my grandfather passed where we got a phone call but it was just static and then all of a sudden in my grandpa's country voice there was a "bye". Sounded just like him only very far away.
It's hard to deal with the passing of a loved one but if they have the energy and we are receptive to it, it makes it so much more comforting when they can present themselves in one way or another to let us know they are ok. I think it's awesome that your dad was able to say goodbye to your son. Being so young, he was probably the most receptive.
I used to have many deja-vu moments, especially as I started to focus on my spirituality. I notice it's the strongest then. Over the last few years I've been so busy that I've tuned that side out. I'd like to get it back. I feel that deja-vu moments tell us that we are on the right track. It's kind of like signpost....I've been here before thing. I believe as souls we write out an outline of our life....like a guide for the lessons we need to learn this time around and people we will meet on our journey and deja-vu means that you just recognized a point in the journey that you wrote before you came to earth. It's hard for me to explain it. This is my belief and some people would say I'm wrong and that's ok. I've read many books and have done my own soul searching and found that this feels right to me.