The unwritten stress (waiting for surgery date) got the best of me today @ the

[ChitChatNine]

Endodontist & I hysterically broke down crying. (another root canal needed and I am not even finished with the tooth just root canaled 5 weeks ago .. they ? putting in the perm. crown with this tooth next door acting up).

I go back on Monday for a 2nd opinion (at their recommendation) with the other partner in the group (He is NY Giants Team Dr) to see if they should continue with the perm. crown on the tooth next door and make certain a root canal is indicated on this molar now) and this doesn't take into account the insurance $ being juggled just so nicely to flow into new amt's avail for next year, etc., etc.  

I just broke down crying when he said "root canal" .. how much can I take right now??  If I get the RCanal now, the timing for the crown comes @ the surgery date (1/9) ... they won't allow me in the OR with a temp crown ? and the $$ I won't want anybody around my neck for a few weeks I would assume ???

I know I'll figure it all out. This has hit me unexpectedly and I am finally crying about all this thyroid stuff now as I write this out.  I've kept it bottled up inside about the surgery & my fears.  I know it will all work out.  I know all the good stuff with it being in this area, etc. etc but finally it has hit me (been 4 weeks since atypical cells found, etc.) and I cannot handle the root canal right now.

I'm finally crying which is good but so unexpected right now for a person who usually is "in control" of her emotions. UGH

[ChitChatNine]

You are close to me!  My Uro is out of Columbia Presb in the City!  My Thyroid surgeon is in NJ but comes highly acclaimed!  Pls. keep in touch on the board or thru e-mail ... Dec. 18th!!! That is soon and I think better to rid yourself of this thing before the holidays and why put it off.  You will bounce back and feel healthier once it is gone no matter what the results will bear.

So sorry about your husband.  Life is scary and since 9-11 (having known a few people who tragically died in the WTC)I have realized how precious ea. and every day is and to have one's health.

I am sorry about the pancreatic cancer; my dad passed away 17yrs ago from it.  I try to put it into perspective that Thyroid is a good place if Cancer is going to rear its ugly head.

I have used Mederma Cream with great success after many scars from re-excision to removal atypical moles that have come back not melanoma but highly atypical meloncytes .... the cream works well if you opt for that vs. pure aloe which does a great job, too!  CVS makes a generic knockoff as well as Walgreens for 1/2 the cost of the name brand.

You are wise to take a month off from work.  I hope somebody will be at home the first week to help out with the kids and the meals.

Thanks for the post to me ... <<< hugs >>>, and good luck on the proposal .. ewwwwwwwwww!!!!  Cheryl

[prncsstoo2]

Good luck with your surgery - Mine is scheduled December 18th.  Hoping I am going to be able to celebrate Christmas at all.  I am an emotional wreck most times.  My emotions run rampant in the past year.  Not on any meds until after surgery so not sure what to expect then.  I dismissed so many symptoms for far too long.  2006 was a hell of a year.  My husband died in the beginning of 2006 suddenly making me a single mother of three teenagers who were in as much shock as I was.  My blood pressure was soaring but agian I put thing off because my mother had pancreatic cancer and i wanted to spend as much time as possible with her.  My mother died on September 11th and then the falling apart really happened.  I am fortunate that I found my soulmate in the interim period and he has been the most wonderful supporter of all my issues.  Finally blood pressure sky high and several persistant ailments brought me to PCP who immediately sent my for an ultrasound and to an ENT.  Long story short - FNA says no malignancy but rapid growth and complexity of nodule warrants removal.  I am relieved to know that I won't have to wait and see any longer but from what I read the fun is yet to start.  My dearest man is planning to propose at Christmas to me (cat got out of the bag) and I am afraid that I will be too zonked to appreciate it.  Taking 4 weeks off from work after surgery to hopefully recuperate and rest up before I go back to fast pace of hospital negotiations (work for large hospital in the Bronx).  My travel is approximately 4 hours round trip each day via trains, subways and buses so I took the extra time to build up strength.  Just want you to know you aren't alone.  Sometimes I am so moddy and irrational but I can only hope that post surgery might even things out.  

I am looking for suggestion for scar healing meds and tricks.  I am going to Hawaii at the end of May and want to be able to not have to wear turtlenecks to hide scar.  We have joked a few times about getting married on the beach of Wakiki and I would like nothing more than wear a strapless dress on the beach at sundown and not be self conscience of my scar.

[ChitChatNine]

I've decided to wait on the root canal and avoid hot foods on that side (I did that for 4 mos with the other tooth b4 going to have it taken care of and that is why this is so disappointing that it is another tooth w/same symptoms!!).

I will have the perm. crown installed next week on the tooth-in-progress unless the 2nd opinion Endo has a very valid reason why not to go ahead.

I am going to ask about getting a nigntguard to wear at night to prevent damage from grinding teeth.

I wasn't thinking about the thryoid stuff at all on a daily basis and then it just snuck up at me ... nice how we stuff things under the rug, huh, to continue with the demands of life esp. during tnis busy holiday season.

Thanks so so much,

Cheryl

[utahmomma]

This time of year is overwhelming enough - add to that the stress of upcoming surgery and whatever may come from that and I don't blame you one bit for being depressed and crying.  

I think I've cried a few buckets full the past few months too.  It kind of feels like "I just can't handle one more thing!"  (I've actually yelled that phrase recently at a few people who love to dump their problems on me.)

It's okay.  Cry.  Scream.  Yell.  It's all okay.  We understand.  You're going to be okay but it's a lot to deal with.  No matter how great any one's support system, it's still the weight of the world you are feeling on your shoulders.

We're here for you!!!  You're not going to go through this alone.

[ChitChatNine]

THANKS so much for your kind words.  I feel better.  I actually feel even a bit better bcz I spoke with my dentist who says to wait on the root canal anyway bcz since not an infection I may be grinding my teeth @ night and it is a temp. "pulpitis" ... which may be very very true .. so b/t speaking with him and your kind words I feel better and not so overwhelmed.

<<<hugs>>> Cheryl

[venora]

Its ok to cry.You are having stressfull time of it right now.Go with the flow and do what ya gotta do.(Smile)I am going through similar experience.Today I am snowbound(icebound)with 3 sm kids cranky hubby and daughter and son-in-law..I want to cry with you.I also went of cytomel to get ready for my RAI.Its fun in Oklahoma today.
Can the root canal wait till after the surgery?I dont know if you are in pain from the tooth.well just come here if you are feeling overwhelmed.Lots of hugs and love Venora

[GravesLady]

Its good and acceptable to cry, and get it out of your system - it cleans the soul and clears the mind. After all you are human, therefore its allowed, so allow yourself this emotion once in a while.

Just take one step at a time. Do the most important issue first.  Get it done and out of the way, don't even think about the next issue until the first is all settled and taken care of.  Take a rest/break in between issues.  Stress is not good for thyroid, teeth issues or any other health conditions, so try to relax.  The holidays are coming up which adds more stress to the situation and it all  can be over whelming. Surround yourself with nice, peaceful things and people.  Laugh as much as possible.  Be positive, the world is not going to end and you are going to be in it for a very long time.  Just think, a few years from now it will all be over with and behind you. Cheer up dear, that is, after you have let it all out.  You are going to be all right!
We are here for you :)  

((((Hugs))))