llenda how are you today?

[kimsscott]

I was wondering how you were doing today? I hope you are having a better day.

[llenda]

Hi Kim!  I am just waking up.  I worked all night last night and I work again tonight. I am doing fine.  The little bit of d/c comes and goes.  None right now.  I am still not having any symptoms.  I took another HPT (officially losing my mind now) BFN.  I wish that I could just not think about it.  I am probably going to take a HPT everyday till beta.  I know its crazy but it kind of keeps me a little sane.  Me and DH do not talk about this at all b/c we are both trying to stay prepared for BFN.  I am really not that down, I am just stressed about all this.  I want to know one way or another.  Sometimes I feel a little nausea but I think it is from thinking about this so much.  Trying not to think about this is just as stressful.LOL  Anyway, how are you doing?  Thanks so much for thinking of me.  I wish you the best of luck.  

[kimsscott]

llenda, I know its hard and as far as the HPT I think that if that makes you feel better than thats ok. Right now is difficult for me as well I obsess about this all the time. Today I told my husband that I wanted to figure out a way to do this again (as far as finances dont have insurance). My mother tells me I dont even know if this IVF didnt work ,but you know it makes me feel better to have a back up plan.I will tell you if I haft to do IVF again I will go through counseling and I will get accupunture they swear it works. I took off of work and probably should have went because staying home is hard. Hang in there !!!! GOOD LUCK  TO YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND BOTH.

[llenda]

Hey girl!  We are so much alike.  Lukily my insurance will pay for like three times but I told my DH that probably after two tries, we might try donor eggs.  If we do, I don't think we will let anybody know, not even family.  I will be 40 this year and I am not sure if the problem woudn't be old eggs.  The chances are so much less when you are above 38.  Anyway, I just want to have a family of my own.  How are you today?  Even though I don't want to go to work, I find it a lot better once I am there.  Last night was good.  All this is in the back of my mind, but yet I was so busy the time went by fast.  I found that by not talking about it, I don't obsess over it as much.  I still don't have any symptoms.  I am not even having a d/c anymore.  No cramps. My BB's are a little sore but that has been this whole time.  I am very tired but of course I am always tired when I work the night shift.  I am really feeling your anxiousness believe me.  We are lucky that we are so close to finding out.  Just three more days.  YEA!!!!!  I am praying for you and your hubby.  Are you trying to do anything to get your mind off all this?  I am off this weekend so we are going out to eat and to the movies Saturday.  

[kimsscott]

Hey girl,  that is a great sign that you are not cramping or spotting anymore. I think you have such a big chance I have a good feeling for you.I think it was a great sign that for your age they retrieved 9 eggs just think I am 34 and thats how many they retrieved on me.I will be thinking of you Monday and I know if its positive I will hear from you soon. I told my friends and family when I found out my beta results if it came out negative then if they dont hear from me than they would know cause to me that would be worse to haft to call a million people and tell them several times I wasnt pregnant.Be thankful you live in a good state that makes insurance cover IVF mine wont. We will haft to get a third mortgage on our home if this dont work.i too have thought of donor eggs but I guess I am just freaking out making plans for the worse.I never in my life thought I would want to be sick to my stomach just so I could have a symptom or sign LOL. On top of everything else my friend that has 3 kids just called and told me she was pregnant. I wish she could have just kept that to her self until my beta was over with. I think its a great idea for you and your husband to go out to eat and to a movie.The more fun you can have to keep your mind off this the better. My thoughts and prayers are with you just think how far you have gotten. 3DAYS!!!!! I will be praying for you. KIM