Method of suicide

[rupet204]

I have looked all over to find a method to commit suicide and cant find any channel that can help, it is not a case of talking me out of it, it will happen, I just want to know the quietest and least messy way.
I have considered poison but am afraid of extreme pain, the same applies for cutting my wrists. Is there a poison that can work quickly and painlessly ?
Alternativly is it possible to "induce" a heart attack ?

[idesofmarch]

I hope that this is a joke. But it isn't funny.  If you want to kill  yourself first think of the people around you or the one that might find you dead. Do you have anyone that likes you or loves you? Even if you think you are unlovable there is someone that loves you. If you want to die I will tell you how.  Die to self and be alive in Christ.  You have already had a chance on making your life what you thought you wanted it to be, now let God show you the best he has for you. What he has for you is way better than what you could ever dream up.  Just ask God into your life, your heart and soul. We are all sinners and need his Son Jesus to cleanse us of our sinful nature.  Jesus has already died on the cross to take away the sins of the world, we just have to take that gift and know that we are forgiven for our past ,present and future sins. When I died to my selfish ways and let God guide me in this life it all fell into place the way it would be best for me.  What I thought would be best would have brought me down and keep me there.  I saw it after the fact.  I hope that you give yourself a chance to see the after the fact instead of doing the act that will permantly take away Gods' best for you. If you chose Gods' blessings please get to a bible believing church so that you can learn more about a good God and how He wants to be your best friend. I can't say it will be pain free or not messy but it will be worth it! In Christs Love,  A friend of Jesus.

[Haremiliana]

Why find methods to suicide, find methods to solve your problem(s) instead. For every problem(s) there's a way out. Talk it out don't ever think of suicide as a way out, think of the people that you gonna leave behind. Be strong, confindent that your're gonna solve it and always think positive. All the best...

[Idab]

It really is very easy to comit suicide, if you really wanted to -  the fact that you are finding it so difficult to do the deed, proves that there is a yearning inside of you that is crying out for help and suicide is not your way out.

My husband and I went through a really rough patch a few years back, he lost his job and we had a morgage bond, 2 small children aged 3 and 18 months old.  So we lost the house and I was forced to move to another province (with our 2 small children) to live with my sister, whilst my husband was tying up loose ends.  I will never forget the day he phoned me to say that he is so down, life is so bad, he wishes he wasn't alive (we unfortunately owned a weapon) that he could just take the gun and blow his brains out.  You know what I said to him "you do that, but while you are still alive, I just want you to know that I will NEVER forgive you for leaving me and our 2 small children and I will not shed a tear - be a man and take responsibility for your actions - comitting suicide is not the answer"  With a lot of faith in my heart, we have had a long road ahead/behind us, but today we are going strong as a family and very very thankful to have eachother.

No matter what you have or don't have, be thankful for your life.  No matter what people think - there is no one worse off than the one who takes his/her life, since it is such an easy way out!

[396SS]

GO TO TAKE A LITTLE VACATION IN THE BEHAVIORAL HEALTH WARD, IT'S NOT THAT BAD, TRUST ME.  GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM NOW AND TELL THEM EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE FEELING LIKE DOING, WHETHER YOU WANT TO TELL THEM OR NOT.  

This makes me feel ill.  I just came back from my uncle's funeral.  He shot himself due to depression.  The pain that my family is enduring right now is unbelievable.  He thought he had no friends or family left.  THE FUNERAL HOME COULD NOT ACCOMMODATE THE HUGE AMOUNT OF PEOPLE THAT ATTENDED HIS SERVICES.  WE ARE ALL DEVASTATED AND WILL BE SCARRED FOR LIFE WITH THE GUILT.  HE WILL NEVER KNOW THE GOOD HE BROUGHT TO PEOPLE AND THE AMOUNT OF SUPPORT HE REALLY HAD.  Will you seriously be at peace with doing this to love ones?  I know, when you are there in the depression, it feels that will bring peace, but it doesn't.  Suffer through this temporary moment, and you will come out of it.  

[sparkeler]

Do you honestly think this is a forum where people are going to give you ways to commit suicide?  You need to go to an emergency room.  I do hope Med Help has seen this & intervened.

[Big Bertha]

I second what idesofmarch said!

[rupet204]

I feel I have to reply after sending in such a desperate letter initially, I have been so depressed that when I wrote that letter I was deadly serious, I have since had a Pastor counsel me and he has prayed with me and given me a new hope. He also convinced me to contact my doctor,which I have done and been given a low dose medication.
No it was no a joke but is was a horrible time and it has still not gone away, but I will try one more time. Thank you all for your comments, the person who is going through the trauma of her Uncles suicide particulary spoke to me .

[Haremiliana]

Glad to hear that you have seek some help, that's a good start, don't ever give up, think of the people that loves you and think of those are dying due to some kind of illness, they have very little time to cherish with their love ones, you have a lifetime ahead of you cherish every moment you have, all the best good luck.

[396SS]

When I read that you were particularly moved by my post I was completely and utterly overwhelmed.  I want to thank you for seeking help most of all, but secondly, thank you for replying to our posts and letting us know.  I looked at this forum that day just because of my uncle's suicide that week.  I saw your post and HAD to spill my story.  I really think that things like this are happening for a reason.  I wrote my post while at work, so I could get in trouble, but I didn't care - I had to respond.  I felt compelled, so who do you think was moving my fingers to type you that message - the man upstairs perhaps.  I don't even go to church, but I am spiritual.  Just know that YOU JUST NOW HELPED ME.  I cried my eyes out, because I actually have helped someone that is going through what my uncle did, and it gives me a sense of purpose and peace.  I've been depressed, severely before, and know how low a person can go.  I was suffering, but I just hung on and decided that I would suffer until my body gave out on its own or I got better.  Well, I got better, not without trials and tribulations and some depression here and there, but like I said, the lowest point was temporary.  About your meds, I'm not sure what it is, but I don't think you should be conservative by taking "low doses".  If suicide was the first thing on your mind, I think it's time for some serious dosage, but I'm not a doc. Thank you again, and please keep posting - even if your down again:)  

[rupet204]

Thank you for your reply, you say you dont even go to church,but are spiritual, well maybe your right about "The man up there",and His direction, I do go to church in fact I'm a born again believer and have been for 30 years, but it shows that in this life we are not excempt from the stress's and pains of the mortal life or the things that can be thrown at us. I am frightened of medication and the effect it can have by making people like a zombie, so it was only by the doctor promising that he would,nt knock me out ,that I agreed to taking even this small dosage. But if you are spriritual, I would be gratefull for prayer support, if I may ask that ? And I trust that you too will be able to cope with your own bereavement. Thank you all for your help.

[venora]

Dont be afraid of the medication.The right meds will work wonders .I am living proof of that.I have been suicidal 3 times in my life but I checked myself into the hospital and I was diagnosed bi polar.The  second time I became suicidal is because I quit taking my meds I was afraid of the med and still in denial I was really bi polar.Back to the hospital and back on my meds. 3rd time I had quit my meds again because I thought the Lord had "healed me" of being bi polar.The last was the eye opener for me.I can say I am bi polar and I have been on my meds for 6 years now.I have fantastic quality of life with my family.I have had my job for 7 yearsnow.(that is a record for me)I am not zombied out.I still feel I get sad mad happy and every emotion you can imagine.No more extremes.
Talk to your doctor and get yourself a good therapist to work through what you are experiencing.It takes  a combo of med and therapy to be a happy,healthy productive person that I know is there inside you.
so I will keep you prayer.Please come back and post how you are doing.This is such a great place to talk things out.
Love Venora

[396SS]

     Oh dear I certainly do pray and have already been praying for you, you can be sure of that.  Something drove me to check this site and was leading my fingers to type to you - and that' s coming from someone who doesn't go to church much at all:)  I believe what is in your heart is what is important, and hope that my uncle had it in his heart too because we found his note tucked into his daughter's childhood Bible and it read - "I'm sorry everybody".  You see, I wasn't brought up in church, so I am ignorant of the Bible and the stories, etc.  Thus, I am usually lost in a sermon and just feel uncomfortable with organized services since I don't know exactly what's going on.  I'm ok with that, because I know what is in my heart and I learn from people around me about the Bible and from life, period, about these things.
     In talking about suffering, I watched the movie The Passion with a good church going friend who explained during the whole movie.  Jesus suffered horribly, can you imagine the suffering?  He did this for us, so the message to me was:  Be brave and if you are ill or in pain, the greatest suffering has already been done by him.  He is our example, he knew his suffering would be great, but it WOULD BE TEMPORARY and the outcome is up to Him - not you.  You're right, we are mortal and will be in pain and suffer at times in this life, period.  We owe it to him to push through the suffering toward light and good - he did it, so can we, and that is the ultimate act of bravery and faith.  Suicide is not the light and good, it is definitely on the side of dark and evil.  
     Again, you are helping me cope with my loss so thank you - sincerely.  I will keep checking for your postings.  Better get to work, maybe later I will tell a little more about my Uncle's life and the events leading up to his unfortunate choice - even if nobody reads it I will feel better:)

Take care and again - take the stinking meds and increase it if need be you'll be fine!  Especially with your careful attitude toward meds - I'm the same way but take it anyway by golly and I'm no zombie.  Take care:)

[retailtherapy]

Hi Rupet:

I want to die as well.  But you can't commit suicide. God doesn't like that. You dont go to heaven if you do that. God will be really mad at you.

Sometimes I pray to God that I had a really bad disease. My mom has cancer and I wish it was me. I feel worthless because I cant help her. I feel like a waste of space. I call the doctor to ask questions and she yells at me.  I am just so frustrated. I have any ivy league education and an mba from a top school and I just dont think I will ever find a job that I like. It just makes me feel lazy and awful. All I want to do is shop and buy gifts for friends. Thats what I want to do with my life but I cant make money on that. I have 100,000 in student loans so I have to find something that will pay the bills.

But you're not allowed to commit suicide. God doesn't allow it. Its against the law.  If I were you I would just try to make other people's lives happy if you can't be happy yourself. I feel like if I do this by the time I die of natural causes, God will look at what I have done and will say. Okay, you werent a happy person but you did make the best of it by trying to help people so you can be an angel.

I feel like if I cant be happy I will try to help others be happy.

Don't commit suicide. Its better to be miserable for the rest of your life than die and then have God send you to where the bad people go.

Try anti-depressants too. If you find a good doctor, they can help you. I went through 10 doctors/10 medications til I found someone who I liked. If the doc doesnt care about you,then you will feel like **** and nothing will work.  Get a good doc who is actually nice.  Then you will feel better.  I stopped taking my meds because I lost them and I am feeling crappy. Tomorrow I am going back to the doc.

Amy