Dear Doctor,
Thank you for the opportunity to post my questions to this board. I have only two.
1) I have a terrible time with expressing my true feelings in writing. Verbally I seem to be okay, but for some reason I am having difficulty with expressing myself through written means. I seem like I have to use a dictionary frequently for most of my sentences, and even when I do, I often convey the wrong message anyway to the recipient of my correspondence. I also feel like I think much more complicated than what I can put in writing, like what I am thinking gets
blockedBlocked tear duct--like a very persistent case of writer's block. Is there a
mentalMental retardation
Mental status tests condition that causes something like this?
AND
2) I suffer from
reactiveReactive arthritis depressionAdolescent depression
Bipolar disorder
Depression
Depression - elderly
Depression - resources
Depression among the elderly
Depression and heart disease
Depression and insomnia
Depression and men
Depression and the menstrual cycle
Depression in children from unrelenting personal setbacks. I cannot begin to tell you everything that has happened to me; all I can say is that I have had so much happen to me I feel like I don't even have time to grieve before something else comes along and wallops me. I also suffer from PTSD from situations that unfortunately, continue. I am not sure how to mention this, but my PTSD is from how I have been treated by doctors. I feel like a
patientKidney diet - dialysis patients who has been kicked around "the system" a few too many times whether it's for insurance or other reasons. I feel like my care has been neglected. I am exhausted from trying to navigate the system. My personal physician of many years has known about my situation, and I recently tried to tell him about how the system was affecting me mentally because of the
stressAcute respiratory distress syndrome
Broken bone
Exercise stress test
Fetal heart monitoring
Neonatal respiratory distress syndrome
Post-traumatic stress disorder
Stress and anxiety
Stress echocardiography
Stress formula with iron
Stress gastritis
Stress incontinence. His response? He wrote me a letter
dumpingDumping syndrome me without warning. And he knew I suffered from PTSD and
depressionAdolescent depression
Bipolar disorder
Depression
Depression - elderly
Depression - resources
Depression among the elderly
Depression and heart disease
Depression and insomnia
Depression and men
Depression and the menstrual cycle
Depression in children. This has not been good for my condition and I am not sure if I can go
backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment to an internist any longer. (I also have
multipleMultiple myeloma
Multiple sclerosis
Multiple sclerosis - resources
Multiple system atrophy physicalPhysical activity
Physical exam frequency
Physical examination conditions as well also). Because of my prior experiences with doctors, it took me years to get comfortable again going to them. I was with my now former internist for years. I am devastated. I have cried about this for now over two weeks; the
grief is terrible. Do you have any suggestions on how I can discuss this with my next physician? Your feedback would be greatly appreciated. Thanks a lot!