Can my day possibly get any worse...

[maddysmommy]

Today it really hit me..right now i feel useless..i just dropped my daughter off at her first day of school..my sons in the nicu 2 hours away...the daycare worker just informed me that my daugthers paperwork was not turned in on time...she didnt care that i had a baby and sat 2 hours away for almost three weeks straight...so now i cant see my son at all this week...also the dr told me yesterday that she feels my sons muscle tone is hypertonic..meaning his muscles are stiff and rigid..and it could be why he's not eating well..his esophagus muscles are tightening...i swear nothing can go right for me...one day of peace thats all iwant...no bad news..just a happy day with my children...i dont think in my whole life ive ever hurt so much and felt so sad...especially for my son..5 weeks old..and has gone thru soo much...now i have to sit her alone till i get my daughter in two hours...it feels so strange..i have not been without my children for three and a half years...this is the worst feeling in the world!!!!!

[Van73]

Oh sweetie!  You have every right to sit there and feel the weight of everything.  You are human.  I am praying for your right now because you are having some overwhelming things happening in your life.  I pray for your son and your feelings. I hope you receive comfort and peace.
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[pixijal]

I am sorry to hear about your newborn.  I know how you feel sitting in the quiet just waiting to pick up.  The silence is eery, and uncomfortable.  It is a terrible feeling, and I'm not sure if or when mother's ever get used to it.  My daughter has adjusted to kindergarten much better than I have.  I have been home for 5 years with two little ones, and all of their noise.....which seemed overwhelming at times.  Now, I would do anything to go back to those simple days of settling arguments between two toddlers. They grow up fast.  It can be a very emotional time.  

Things will get on track for you soon.  Your son will be home, your paperwork will arrive at daycare, and you will adjust w/the school ager. Take care, and vent whenever you'd like.....

[surprisebaby]

Perhaps someone else could FILL your shoes for a day.  Get the kids where they need to be, and you could spend your day however you want.  Sometimes, we just need a break.  I do feel for you!  You are a very strong woman!  I hope you can find the inner strength to push through.  Soon, very soon things will be MORE NORMAL for you!  I am thinking of you! ((((hugs))))

[Me2mommy2b]

I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed (I would too).  I don't know what words of advice to offer.  When I'm in situations where I feel there is no way out, I pray (sorry, if it sounds cheesy but it does help me).  I pray you hear nothing but good news from now on.  Did the dr give you the reason why your DS is hypertonic?  As far as I remember Pierre Robin's are hypotonic (I may be wrong).  

[Renogirl]

Just a suggestion - although if your preschool wouldn't work with you on late paperwork don't know how willing they would be to allow this - but some centers do allow volunteers.  You probably won't be allowed to volunteer in your daughter's classroom - but if they have an infant room, perhaps you can volunteer in there.  Might help kill the time until you can pick up your girl.  If they won't allow that, then go get a manicure, pedicure, massage, something - just relax - chill and take a moment or two for yourself - you'll be more use to your children if you are relaxed - sorry to hear things are so cruddy right now for you - hopefully things will get better - sending positive thoughts your way

[maddysmommy]

prs kids have a 50% chance of a tone issue either being hypertonic or hypotonic..when blakes was evaled by the numberous drs he's seen thus far they all said his tone was normal..but now with a new dr she thinks otherwise..

[ImmortalOne]

Hang in there lady, I know its hard to be away from your children, its always difficult.  They are our lives, they are our hearts walking around outside our bodies, and there is nothing that can or will change that.  You and your family have gone through so much and there is more that you will be going through before things get any better. Do you have family or friends who can help?  No one else can understand what you are going through (the stupid people about the paperwork) other than you and your DH.  You guys are still in my thoughts and prayers.

[maddysmommy]

thanks everyone...i finally feel better after picking my dd up from school she ran up to me and yelled o mommy i love you : ) it was so sweet..like she knew i needed that..it made my day!! now just relaxing at home waiting for the dr to call about blakes report from his test today..trying to stay calm..thanks again for the support

[tmv]

I can't know how exactly you feel, but you do need to rest and have a moment to yourself. DO NOT fell guilty whatsoever. You need to take care of yourself bc if you don't and you get run down then you won't be able to care for anyone. Take a bubble bath. Relax. Enjoy. Then hop right back into it well rested. I hope you have a better day. I know from my hospital days that I and all of the other nurses always got so attatched to the babies there. He is going to get plenty of hugs and tlc today, don't you worry.

[Renogirl]

Isn't it amazing how children instinctively know when and what we need - God gave us an amazing gift when he created children (or gave Adam and Eve the knowledge to bd - lol)  

If you ever want to hear a GREAT song - its an oldie but a goodie - its by the Oak Ridge Boys and it's called Thank God for Kids!  

My job has amazing perks and benefits - I get paint covered hugs and jells covered kisses every day - I get hand made drawings as gifts and all day laughs and smiles!  Children are amazing!

Take care of yourself as well as your two little precious angels!

[Mozartcowgirl]

If i was there... i would do anything i could to help you .. i feel so bad that so many things are happening at such a fanatical pace for you .. it will pass.. but until it does.. go into your car.. turn up the music.. and scream  yell.. shout..stomp.. cry.. curse ..i do it at least once a week.  I have all these thoughts in my head about what you are going through.... i cant even begin to put them into words... while i do not feel what you are feeling.. i can certainly understand that you have been put before you so much bullshite and pain that it must seem like nothing is ever going to be ok .  I feel for you .. and wish i could help out.  all we here have on this forum is words.. but if we were all together in the same room.. you would most certainly feel it physically.. but mentally.. please know that we are thinking about you .. and praying a whole heck of alot.