Strength and Courage

[freebird4good]

Today is day 25 for me.  I haven't been in a church in a very long time.  If I make it through this coming week, I am seriously going to go to church , get down on my knees and Thank God.
I really need strength & courage this week.

[Beargizmo]

Congrats, freebird4good!  that's a great accomplishment and I'm very happy for you.  Will pray for strength and courage for you this week..though I haven't been in church for several years, I know God is there and cares for you very much.


Jim

[wantlifeback]

Hello, i have been so worried about you,  i haven't felt the best myself so i just check in occasionally.  I hope things are going better for you stress wise and wd wise.  I will pray for you tonight as i believe also.  is it the wd you are needing help with or the personal stuff going on?

[eliminnopee]

Mark 9:23...  If thou canst believe, all things ARE possible to thou who believe.

[eliminnopee]

*those who believe*  sorry

[freebird4good]

Thank you Jim, wantlifeback, and eliminopee - for your kind thoughts, words, and prayers, they mean a Lot :)

I realize that God is not only in a house (church) on Sundays.  I talk to him I just wonder sometimes, if he listens all of the time.

wantlifeback - how are you ?  are you feeling better ?  are you sleeping better ?  I'm sorry that you haven't been feeling too good lately.  I do hope that passes and that you feel better real soon.  The strength and courage that I need is for the surgery that I'm having on Wednesday.  I'm scared to death.  The personal stuff is small compared to the other stuff that I'm dealing with.   But..it will get better, I have faith that it can only get better.  The wds are gone - I'm so thankful for that.  The cravings are still there but not as bad as last week.  Everyday is a little better..
Hang in there

[jasmine614]

I took maybe 2 pills aday for years.  Then I got hurt and now take 4 to 10 aday.  I am scared that I cannot stop this roller coaster ride.  What can I do to stop?

[freebird4good]

ps:  Congratulations on 26 clean days !!!!  Good Job !!

[wantlifeback]

Hello, I'm sorry i did not realize you were having surgery, that is really scary.  I wish you all the best and i will pray for your safety.  

I am still shaky but i just kept eating today and it helped, i will have to start walking or i will need to buy bigger clothes.  I am still not sleeping on my own, i have been still taking 1/2 sleeping pills and zanax a couple of times.  I am going to try the valarium root tonight if i can get to sleep on my own.
I am so glad your wd are gone before your surgery, that is a big relief for you, one less thing to worry about.  I am thinking about you and worried, please keep me posted when you are feeling up to it!

[freebird4good]

Hello, I was laughing at what you said about "needing bigger pants" haha.    Don't worry about that, if eating helps, do it.  :)    
Good luck with the valerian root.  Let me know how that works for you.  I'm all for  herbs and anything holistic or natural, compared to pharmaceutical.  I order stuff from a company called Swansons Health Products.  Their prices are real good and they carrry almost anything that you can think of. They have an oline store and a catalog that comes in the mail.

I hope that you feel better today.  I will post later this week.  Be good and most of all , Be well and take good care of yourself, I need you !

[hurtinunit]

I will pray for you also and throw myself in there while I'm at it.You quit around the same time as me but I didn't make it as I am still playing around with it.I believe things happen for a reason and maybe God is using this to draw us close to Him again

[freebird4good]

Thank you :)
Don't be too hard on yourself.  Keep trying and don't ever give up.  I believe too that things happen for a reason. You're right, maybe God is using this as a test of courage, faith, and strength.  He's here with us and he'll help us if we ask.

  
Don't give up...today is a new day.
Hang in there !!  and thank You again :)

[chawk47]

Hello everyon! Liscamdav, i read yesterday it was day 40 for you. I had quit cold turkey either a day ahead of you or a dday behind...not sure of the exact date after all we /I had been through those past few weeks.But it sure does feel great!! I may write you more if you do not mind since we are so close in days being clean to see exactly what you are possibly still experiencing ...is that ok? Wantlife back, Narc-vet had recommended the valairium root to mee about a week ago and IT HAS HELPED. It is not real strong, but does help . FLaddict had recommended Melatonin too. I tried this seperately and it messed with my head quite a bit...actually gave me some of the rls again and weird stuff firing off in my brain!! I know we are all different and it may work for a lot of people but not me...still was worth the try to get some sleep though thanks for the recomendation fladdict!! Free bird....congrats on day 26 it is aswesome !!!!  Have you used anything "herb wise that has been helpful to you? I like you do not wantANY pharmacuticals but will try natural herbs!! thanks for any insight. Take care all and God bless you all have helped me in my w/d process and understanding what i am going to encounter along the way...would not have been able to go 40 days with out this forum!! Chawk47