So low

[mandy778]

I have felt so depressed and suicidal over the past 2 weeks.  My marriage broke up this year, and we are getting down to the finer details of financial settlement now.  We have an Autistic child.  I have no family support.  My ex supports all he can but we can hardly talk because he wants to get back together and I don't.  I have been foolishly dating a man who has never been married, never had a child. He is 48  years old and he acts like my life should revolve totally around him. I keep breaking it off with him only to restart the relationship again.  I was involved with this man when I was 21 and he was 33.  He came back in to my life unexpectedly and we tried to regain what we once had.  Anyway I broke it off with him on Thursday night because I told him that I feel like jumping off a cliff. Because I had had a really, really bad day with verbal and physical abuse from my ex.  I was feeling drained.  My child with Autism had caught up on the emotions and was crying too.   Well, he was out of my house so quickly after I told him that I felt like killing myself. I then phoned him to tell him we were finished. Because he did not support me. He then said that he did.  He felt I did not communicate my needs to him.  

I have not eaten properly for two days, and I can't sleep.  I was once up last night and the night before, about 20 times. I have lost weight over the past 2 weeks.  I have cut him off and I want to stay out of his life this time.  Please help me because I need to move on this time.  

Regards, Mandy

[mandy778]

I meant to add that I have suffered depression all my life but during the past 2 weeks, it is worse then ever. I sometimes cannot face the day. I am filled with doom and gloom.  Can somebody please offer me some advice?  I would be most appreciative.  

[Venora Moonwind]

Please get some help from therapy and a psychiatrist. you dont have to suffer this way. take care of yourself so you can be there for your child. you are in my prayers.I* will be thinking of you and I pray you get the help you need. Just message me if you want to talk.
Love Venora

[MARIEALICE35]

HI MANY I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW ME BUT, I SUFFERED FROM THE EXACT SAME STUFF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW.  THE FIRST THING YOU NEED TO DO IS (PLEASE TRUST ME);
1.  GET ON EFFEXOR XR START 75 MG MOVE TO 150 IN 1 WEEK THE 225 A WEEK LATER, YOU MAY NEED EVEN 300MG.  ITS OK CAUSE MANY PEOPLE ARE ON AS MUCH AS 450.  I DID 300MG FOR 6 YEARS SAVED MY LIFE.

2. GO TO A CLINIC THAT OFFERS *GROUP* THERAPY.  THE BEST PART TO RECOVERY. BECAUSE THEY ALL OFFER IDEAS THAT YOU NEVER THOUGHT OF, YOU MAKE GREAT FRIENDS WHO HELP YOU, AND YOU NEVER FEEL ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE!   I BEG YOU, TRUST ME.

        ALICE
                  

[MARIEALICE35]

hi mandy,
    yeah i have been feeling that exact way lately. funny how you feel so alone but their is always someone else who feels the exact same way as you do.  GOD BLESS YOU i hope you get better.
            with lots of simpathy alice