Help me i know what i am doing is wrecking my body and i want to stop NOW

[Dietdont]

I have been reading all about laxatives and the hell they do with your body and im scared really scared and have just thown away all the laxatives i have left.

I have been a very bad yoyo dieter for so many years and abused laxatives. the last few weeks I have been taking about 8-10 - combination of senokot and ducolax everyday.

I knows its a life threatening  addiction. I am struggling with my weight and the result of a very difficult wisdom teeth op in sept,  and stress from work adn living so far a ways from my home adn familyhas made me bing and purge - the darkest time in my past 15 years of foing this becasue of the number of binges i have , the lacsk of slef control and the laxatives which i take.
I KNOW ITS WRONG - AND I TOTALLY HATE MYSELF

can anyone give some hints to get out of this cycle? I am 31 and dont want to die of laxative overdose and can i have a normal digestibve system again??????????

Pleaseanyone?

[ftfrgrl]

hi, i was going to post a similar story to yours.  i to have been abusing laxatives. only for about 2 months though.  i a few days ago i took 26 dulcolax.  i know when i take them again i shall have to take more as my body is becoming so tolerant.  i have had alot of chest pain on the left side and centre for about 3 weeks now.  yet i can not stop taking the things.  i feel as though i have to cleanse my body.  i am underweight anyway so feel as though i am on borrowed time.  i was wondering if my chestpains were warnings of a heartattack however i have never heard of anyone getting warning pains. i thought you just dropped down dead or got saved when your heart was started again.
thanks

[lucy1122]

Wow.  Like I have said to others on this forum, and to people in my life who are struggling with similar  issues as you...You are in deep, deep trouble and until you address the emotional pain that is sooo crying out for your attention, your addiction with get worse and worse, and probably kill you.  I can assume that your behaviors are, sabotaging any hope of any real relationships in your life.  How bad does is have to hurt before you seek out some help???  There is sooo much more going on for you phsycologically and emotionally than you are willing to look at.  Some of the ways the addiction is manifesting itself in you physcially is with chestpains and cramps, How's your skin color.  Eventually, you won't be able to have a bowel movement without the assistance of a laxative.  Or it may take the opposite effect and you will be wearing a Depends undergarment because you have no control of your bowels.  May I suggest a natural laxative in the meantime...from a healthfood store.  This by no means a solution, but a much gentler option for your body's sake.  Get some help girl!  Talk to someone.  You will find your way out of it if you let people into your pain, and share your struggle.

Goodluck.