SUBOXONE TREATMENT

[oxyaddict420]

This is more of a statment than a question.. I have had some pretty evil personal messages sent to me lately, I guess because they see my mood is that I have pills and have relapsed again..  There are a few caring people that are my friends that know my situation and are going to be there for me 100%!!!  They are all people that I met through this site..  I am getting on an insurance plan that started Jan.1 and I am just waiting on the cards to come in the mail..  I have heard from others around my town that this is a great insurance plan..  So, I am going to research and see if the pain management DR's around my area will aceept my insurance for the visits or the meds or even(GOD WILLING BOTH)..

I have heard alot of people say that suboxone has saved their lives, and that it is great for recovery. I haven't heard alot of people saying how they came off of it and everything was great.. I have heard a couple to be fair..  I am personally going to try the suboxone treatment due to my major abuse and long term abuse of oxycodone 300-400mg per day! and anything else pain pill related!  I have went cold turkey so many times I would have to guess a number to count. Im sure it is close to 30-40 times though..  I have had this addiction for many years, and have decided I personally cant fix this overnight, and have came to terms to actually accept long term help..

I do want off pills

I do want a life without narcotics

I do want my life back

I understand that suboxone has strong opiate in it as well, but along with other stuff that helps as well. I have read up ALOT  on this, and I am hoping this will be what takes me through the dark tunnel to find the light at the end!!!

Please people that have nothing but evil things to say, keep them to yourself. It is hard enough dealing with this addiction to have to read hatemail!  And the people that keep sending me the great and insperational emails.. KEEP THEM COMING!  I am going to beat this deamon ******* of pain pills if it is the last thing I do..  Not everyone will agree with me, but I DONT CARE ANYMORE!  I need help, and I haven't tried this. Tried a million other things, but NOT THIS!   I may use and abuse up until the day I get on it, and that is just the honest truth.. But I tell you what, when I get on it I will do everything I am supposed to 100%  I dont care if it takes me 1 week or 1year!!!  Thanks to the people that truly support me and are there for me.. I could name names, but you all know who you are.. Sorry so long, but alot of people have been bashing me, and asking alot of questions that really arent their business. Hope this clears things up!

GOD BLESS--

WE CAN DO THIS

WE DESERVE IT!!

[dogneedshelp]

YES!!! You can certainly do it. You sound like you have walked a long path to get to this point and the determination I am hearing from you gives me hope that this will be the time you break the cycle.

Come back to this forum and start posting. That has helped keep my mind busy so I don't stare at the clock. There are a LOT of us who care about your success and want to see you come out the other side a clean healthy person. Please post and let us know how you are doing. Best of luck to you with this struggle.

[oxyaddict420]

Thanks alot for the post.. especially for caring about someone you don't know.. I was posting ALOT when I ran out of meds and needed support for the w/d!

After I re-upped and was on the pills, I wa sgetting alot of hate-mail!  So I was doing more reading and watching than posting..  I don't think I will ever leave this site..

by the way I would love to hear your story..  What was your DOC? how many per day? how long have you used?  Are you clean? Are you going to get clean?  Only if you want to share!

Thanks again for the kind words

[GoingToMakeIt]

I am rooting for you. I have said it before. When it comes to getting off these drugs. The end justifies the means. Do it any way that works for you. Don't give up. Keep on keeping on! There is something about you that tells me you will succeed in this.
Keep the faith.

[dogneedshelp]

I was using 13 vikes a day for the last year and probably 6 a day the year before that so I have had plenty of time to become addicted. I started to taper New Years Day for one small reason... I found this forum on New Years Eve and it gave me so much hope and promise that I just had to take the leap. I may have taken too much of a leap because my first cut was from 13 to 6 a day and damn this SUCKS!!!

I certainly agree with you that I don't think I will ever leave this site.There are too many positive people here and you can always block the jackasses from your inbox.

There are negative people everywhere and I'm sure the negativity has a lot to do with their own failures so they attack you in order to feel better about their own shortcomings. Don't let it get you down.

I am glad you are posting again. Please keep it up when you start detox. You KNOW we will be here for you!!

[allaboutmary]

Those people are jelous you have pills. lol  You can block those people from sending you personal messages. There should be a little box you click on that says block.
You sound like you have a plan and you are determined .  Don't let some people's negativity get you down. Getting free of these pills can be a long hard road and seems like you have accepted that. Don't give up the fight. Keep posting.  Most of us are supportive.   Mary

[kimkim454]

way to go. when i first came here i relapsed within days with 360 percs. boy oh boy i wish i never told anyone, i got a good bashing as well. i was just trying to be honest and thought this was something probably everyone went through. i know i probably deserved it and i definitely learned a lesson. to tell you the truth it made me fight harder. i am glad i relapsed because i still had a love of pills at that time. so i got the 360 percs, took 60 a day for 6 days, never got a buzz, felt physically terrible, vomitted nonstop. so when i when back on the sub 12 hours after my last pill i was finally ready. never ever thought i would say that. some people were a little brutal but twice as many were supportive, some just ignored me. please, please try the suboxone. it has worked for me so far, like a miracle. can't really say how the wd from that will go but i have been enquiring the last day or so and it sounds like if i am not on it too long it will be doable. six weeks now. can't wait to be done with pills all together.
fyi; my sub doc insisted i go to a na meeting. i got bashed there for being on the sub. they said i was still on drugs and the meeting was for people on their way to recovery not people still using. ouch.

[oxyaddict420]

goingtomakeit--thanks as always man..  I agree with alot of what you say and think you are doing alot of good by being on here and posting. Thanks

dogneedhelp--You are doing good man, keep up the taper method and make sure to keep to it. I know it can be tempting, but you are stronger than the temptation. This is your time man.. you will do this!

allaboutmary--It will be a long hard road, but it beats the hell out of the road i have gotten so used to travling!  I appriciate the kindness and support from you.. Thanks

kimkim--wow, I haven't seen anyone else post that they take, or took that much pills as you and I.  that is alot. Were they the 5mg 7.5 or 10's?  I am glad you did not OD!!!  I am really hoping the sub will really help alot.. I am not hoping it will do all the work, because that is for me to do. But as long as it helps with certain aspects, I will take care of the rest! Thnaks for your support, and the BEST OF LUCK to you and you plan to get off.....

I am determined, and I haven't been mroe serious about anything else in my life!  To me this is my life i am talking about.. Since I was about 19yrs old I haven't really sone anything I can truly be proud about..  I have a wonderful, most supportive(but tired) fiancee! She is everything to me!!! I can't say in words how wonderful of a person that she is. Honestly, I think she is an angel that god put on this earth to guide me to some type of happiness and fullfillment!  She makes me want to be a better man!

I have MAJOR-MAJOR depression issues, and I know that has alot to do with why I abuse the pills rather than just take them as precribed. amoung many others i am sure..  I am also going to ask the sub DR if I can get into an addiction therapist specialist..  I need to get to the root of WHY'S, AND HOW'S!  I have to really break myself down and rebuild..  I am GOING TO DO THIS-- I AM GOING TO SUCCEED!!!!!! I AM GOING TO RECLAIM MY LIFE, AND MAKE IT MY OWN!  

I know some of you might think I am like the king of one liners, but hey it's me..  

[ButchH8]

Dude...Suboxom will fix your oxy withdrawel problem. I would say after 2 weeks on Subox. you need to taper off and finish. I was using 80-100mg/day oxy and took Subox for 3 days and done.  I would say once your on Subox for 7-10 days, start tapering and see how you feel.  A doctor may keep you on this for months because he makes big bucks from your weekly visits. BUT ONLY YOU KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!  AFTER 10 DAYS ON SUBOX YOU ARE OVER ANY OPIATE WITHDRAWEL ISSUES.  Then its easy to stop Subox. You will still have some issues like trouble sleeping, but they can be dealt with.

[oxyaddict420]

I get what you are saying man, and I can relate.. But, I have issues that are far more deep than just getting past withdrawl.. If you read all my posy(which is long as hell) you would see that i have been through cold turkey/tapering withdrawl around 30-40 times i really have lost count! I have gotten past it just to relaspe again and again!  I need to get to the root of the problem and rip that friggin thing out of the ground and then burn it with a totch!!!!!!

Thnaks for the advice though, and I am glad you were able to get off so easily! That is awesome man! Keep up the great work

[hopsing94]

Hey bro,first I hope the sub works for you this time. All the times i have tried to quit i would go through the withdrawls and feel good for a few day and tell myself ok this time im not getting addicted. Ya know just a few wont hurt and like always the few a day turned into a few and hour everyday. You are absolutely right about finding out what it is that makes you want to use. For me not sure what it is but for some reason I had to numb out before i would get home. So something at home maybe dont really know yet. I wish all the success in the world, Keep us posted on the sub because if I don't make it this time c/t then i was gonna try the sub, just a little worried about how to get off it.Good luck--John

[oxyaddict420]

Thanks john-- i will keep everyone posted as it takes place!

[ButchH8]

But I did read your whole thing.  Once you are past withdrawel its all MENTAL. Going thru that **** 30-40 times PROVES you want to PUNISH YOURSELF. At your level of Opiates, I wouldn't want to go through wd ONCE. SIR..you need to figure out WHY you can't  LET GO. Do you need Detox or Mental Counseling? Or both. I would rather die that get hooked again. Its a matter of self respect. You might even start LIKING YOURSELF once your completely clean.  You might feel like you accomplished something. Challange yourself! Get mad at yourself! Good Luck man!

[broknbck]

i feel your desperation. was there too. i tried to quit alot of times and failed. the last time i succeded!  i figured it out, why i kept failing. it was because i wasn't making any changes in my life so as to not want or have the need to keep using.
i actually had to move 2000 miles away. but it worked!! and i was willing to try anything. it sounds like that's where you are. wanna try anything. hope the suboxone works for you. i was chicken to try it because i've only heard one success story from it. i wish you all the best in finding a solution to this hell ride so many of us are on!! stay determined and start planning your great future!!

[kimkim454]

they were 5 mg pills with no tylenol, i think they were called roxicet, basically percocet without tylenol. i would take 12 at a time 5 times a day and run out after 6 days. when i think about it now i would hate to see my liver or other organs since i only weigh about 105lbs. yikes. i can't wait to be done with all this. monkey on my back, more like king kong. but i am going to do it, thanks to suboxone. i do miss the high but truthfully i haven't felt that in sooooo long anyway. i felt so good i would be up all night calling companies just to tell them how much i love their products, example....shampoo, nabisco, cable company etc. how ridiculus is that!? those days are long gone. good luck to you, i hope to see you around here often.

[dogneedshelp]

Yea it sounds like you are determined and this time you realize there is an underlying problem with your drug use. Find a good psychotherapist and get it worked out. I wish I could do more to help you but I am here to talk it out with you and listen when you need me to.

I'm proud of you... really proud.

[tammyk_40]

Im there for you 100%. We're all cheering for you. I was on your side from day 1. I believe we all can overcome the bond of addiction. I wish the best for you! Tammy

[NautyOne]

exactly why Med help should get rid of PM